If you don't heal what hurt you

You'll bleed on people who didn't cut you

And sometimes it's too late, feeling less faith

Everyday, it's in poor taste, can you relate?

Up in a headspace

Always find myself back in a bad place

Blame it on my mental state

It's all I can do anyway

The hate I have for myself

Knows no bounds

I always carry it around

Like goddamn baggage hanging in the background

To heal is much like to hurt

It lingers on from bad to worse

Where's the resolve?

It leaves with the blood thirst

I'm terrified of dying

Though I'm equally scared to live

Whenever I was close to being happy

I'd fuck it all up again, rinse and repeat

The problem is always me

And I'm drowning in "I'm sorry's"

I'm sorry for being alive

I'm sorry for wasting your time

And I can't take it back

Or erase any of it

It's the debt that I'll owe

At the cost of being level-headed

Another lesson to weigh me down

Not everything is so fucking profound

Sometimes the next lesson is wanting to kill yourself

Please help me, please help me

If you don't heal what hurt you

You'll bleed on people who didn't cut you

And sometimes it's too late, feeling less faith

Everyday, it's in poor taste, can you relate?

Up in a headspace

Always find myself back in a bad place

Blame it on my mental state

It's all I can do

Sometimes the next lesson

Is trying not to kill yourself

Fuck

This is what it's like, the guilt of a trauma response

Love's not enough to survive on

Love is not enough