I had nowhere to go felt lost and alone

Abandoned I gave up my effort of having control

Struggling to breathe the crippling disease

Took everything I had right under my feet

I drowned in the sadness was buried in stress

Thought a world without me would probably be best

And I thrived on the hate I hate for myself

That I had for myself

Hanging around my throat

Bringing my down to lunacy

Depression slipping through the seams x2

I don't know when or how this happened

Always feeling trapped and stagnant

I guess I got sick of all the distractions

Couldn't get used to the old me absence

And i've faced facts i'm doomed to finish last

Hope for myself and everyone else is fading fast

I used to think differently I used to be someone else

I used to be vibrant before I lost myself

I'm out of touch seeing through a new pair of eyes

Still continuing to live feeling dead inside

These are the things I keep buried deep

A downward spiral that isn't meant to be seen

A burden only meant for me, the struggle that unravels underneath

Hold my breath and count to 10

I've lost myself in you again

Let you go at my expense

I've lost the words to say now that you've gone away