I can feel the decay

This disease pulling me apart

In every direction

Wishing I can speak

Instead I just disregard

Suffocate me - set me free

Inside I am so weak

Attending to wounds

That nobody sees - screaming internally

Lack of sleep, loss of cartilage in my knees

Afraid to worry those around me

And add insult to injury

Apathy and aggression

Bogged down by despondency

Co dependent to cynicism

Caused by these discrepancies

I'll dance around the subject

To avoid killing the mood

Numb myself like I did beforе

With what I can

And say it's not so bad

I'll dance around the subject

To avoid killing thе mood

Numb myself like I did before

With what I can

And say it's not so bad

I can feel myself wither

My body's on a short leash

Swelled lungs and blood shot eyes

I'm begging just to breathe

Sick of the medication

My life's tied to a machine

And I can say that I'm not lonely

But loneliness is killing me

I can feel myself wither

My body's on a short leash

Swelled lungs and blood shot eyes

I'm begging just to breathe

Sick of the medication

My life's tied to a machine

And I can say that I'm not lonely

But loneliness is killing me