Jaded and drained, hollow and chained

To loss and heartbreak, I’m not the same

We hurt ourselves on the outside

To snuff what constantly kills us on the inside

I’m still stuck in this rut

Existing in that in between

Wishing I wasn’t so empty

Coming apart from the seams

Everything gets so tedious, it always feels the same

The older I get, the lower I sink, and I don’t think that’ll change

So tired of wasting my efforts, attempting to blend in

I don’t belong here, and maybe I never did

Does growing up have to feel like this

Will I ever get back what I missed?

Self medicate to help me forget, I’ve made my bed and I’ll die in it

I shouldn’t have worn my heart on my sleeve

I shouldn’t have kept you so close to me

I just need space

Anger takes shape

You’re a memory I wish I could erase