[verse 1]

When i was younger

I used to wonder what could go wrong

Until i would be scared when i hear thunder

When i was younger

There was no anger

Just adding number by number

When i was younger

Id wake up to a bagel and butter

Waiting for me

Me my mom and dad were happy as can be

[Chorus]

Life used to be so damn happy

Now its so sad

It makes me mad

I wish Life wasn't so bad

But now I’m just angry

Life used to be so happy

Now its so sad

It makes me mad

Life wasn't so bad

But now im just angry

Why can i just have my old times back

[verse 2]

Now im a teen

My dad died in 22

Now my lifes so absurd

What thе hell do i do

Well now i have a nicе dog

Dont know what id to without her

Her name is cashew and i love her to death

I dont know what ill do when she takes her last breath

Lets hope i dont resort to cigarettes

Don't do that kids!

I remember this kid gave me a death threat

Shanked the shit out of him with a toothpick

I remember when i was younger

I was never violent

When i was younger

Id just show up to class and sit in silence

But now im older

Have 4 friends

Ones a bitch

When i was younger tho i had so many

At least 20 but i can’t recall

Why can't i go back?

When I'm older idk what will happen to me

Maybe I'll be broke and homeless

Or rich hopeless and soulless

Because that's what happens to most

Wonder if I'll be in a relationship

That is if anyone wants me

I know if I'm rich

The whole world will be over me

But if I'm poor and broke

No one will love me

Or let’s say none of this happens

It’s the same as now

I blow up get famous and I keep going

Happy as can be

But last time I was like that

My dad died I was sad

What's next my mom

Oh god I hope not

I know everyone dies eventually

But I want her to live long and be happy

But if she does die I’ll have to stay calm

Make sure my emotions

Don't come over me

And I don't blow up like a bomb

And my Palms get sweaty

My knees get weak

My arms get heavy

My whole body tenses up

I fall on my mattress all bloody

When i blow my brains out

Because of my sadness

And my madness

When I was younger never thought

Anything bad could happen to me

But now I woke up

But now I'm scared when I speak

I croak up

I don’t know man I just life used to be so

[outro]

I know maybe this is just part of growing

Maybe I'll just outgrow this

I know that I'm not that

All that I know

Is life can be tough

But if I can get threw it

You can too