I was no pawn, I was the game

You played me like your bitch, no one else to blame

I bit the bullet, it bit me back

So paranoid, feel like I'm due for a heart attack

Hate flows in my veins

My soul knows no peace

Overfed with this pain

You infect like disease

Callous, dehumanized, dead and drained

Broken, battered and fucking deranged

I’m not afraid anymore

I’m not afraid

Don’t get it twisted when I twist it deep into your chest

I’m stuck trying to shake this feeling

That the whole world wants mе dead

I self destruct to numb this mothеrfucking chokehold of dread

I’m imprisoned in my head

Should I end this life I’ve lead?

I’ll set it straight

You’ve lost your faith

Taught me hate

Left me to suffocate

Wanna put me down

Like a rabid dog?

You should’ve drowned

Lost in the fog

You don’t deserve your crown

You weren’t made to rule

Ran your mouth so much it ran you over

No I’m not afraid

There’s no one else to blame

And now I have the gun

Better fucking run

I’m stuck trying to shake this feeling

That the whole world wants me dead

I fucking harm myself, because it numbs the dread

I’m stuck inside my head

There’s nothing else to be said

I can’t feel

I can’t feel anything

No way to heal