A notepad with numbers

I guess I was supposed to...

Remember

And I'm not sure

Just how I found it

From an amalgam of...

My desk pens

(OK)

Maybe when I'm troubled

With understanding things that I can't

I'll remember

And I know why I won't feel the same touch

From trembling hands

But

I will never...

Understand

I'm still trying my best

I'm still trying to remember

Knowing that I'll never...