Hey everybody
I'm Chris
I’m an alcoholic
Hi Chris
I uh, I just got out of the hospital a few days ago for alcohol withdrawals
And, an overdose on diphenhydramine
Which is basically Benadryl, uh
I don't know if any of you guys have experience but
I'm sure you’re aware of how nasty alcohol withdrawals can be
So, it was a pretty rough night I'm sure you can imagine, um
The doctors said that, you know my, my liver's in bad shape
They said I am pre-diabetic
And that my next drink, or next candy bar could uh
Could be a life sentence on both counts
I uh, I have a bachelor party coming up this weekend
That'll probably be my last ride as far as alcohol goes, uh
I know it's probably not the smartеst to schedule my last beer
You know why not just quit now but
I don't particularly wanna leavе on that bad note so
I don't know what lies ahead of me but
I think I'm ready
If you uh, if you all don’t mind
I’d like to share exactly where I've been
So that when I update you guys
When my album is out
You can uh, you can see how far I’ve come
Thank you
I'm like where did all my chips go
I guess I went all in
And why is my knee so skinned up
I don't remember falling
Text from my ex (I won't pick up)
I don’t remember calling
I see an unfamiliar bottle, hollow, blood on the brim
I gotta get my shit together
They used to say I was clever
Now I wake up every morning feeling under the weather
I'm fucking my head up
It's 4 and I'm hungover as hell
I never look in the mirror
Who I'd see, I'd fucking resent him
I'm literally putting shots in my veins
My health at an all time low
Least I forgot all the pain
And plus I like being drunk
It's like I'm playing a game
Cause when I'm under the influence I can shift all the blame
I black out texted my side bitch and even pissed off my main
My mama text me she like
Christopher hey, you think this shit is okay
Your grandfather and uncle withered away
Fuck with your liver, you'll rekindle the flame
Put it away
I'm like where did all my chips go
I guess I went all in
Thank you