can’t explain - Intellectual

[Intro: Jacque Lorraine]

Yeah

My whole life, I been feelin' inept

Nobody could hate me more than I hate myself

Actions of a young man starin' at death

Visions of a father with a pump for his breath

Silence from his mother turns to cries of distress

His sister looks at him with the weight on her chest

Swallowin' emotion becomes a diagnosis

And then it's an excuse for why his life is a mess

I can't explain it

It's inexplicable, but I can say it

And pretend I'm spiritual until I'm prayin'

And then my world collapses, I'm tryna find cadence

And then I leave you be, because I don't believe in patience

Yeah

Through the doorway, playin' out a [?]

My catharsis is more important than my born date

Place that I was born is hard enough to melt your sorbet

But conditioned me into a heart colder than Norway

Yeah, I'm finally tryna be my best

Nobody should love me more than I love myself

If my pops would've died, I'd probably follow him in death

But what would that have done to everybody I have left?

So I'm fixing, and not fixated on the past

But when I write, it takes me back, I think of all that I've unmasked

'Cause I've found happiness in laps, here the [?] in my bag

There's emotions in the tracks, and you can feel it when I rap about the realness and the facts

Everything I had to pass

I'm on a different path, no more facades and no more wrath

Just the love I have to pass

Just the love I gotta pass, uh huh