[Intro]

I gotta go, gotta go hard

I'm lying if I said I'm far in this game

I don't got bars, not good enough to make it far

I used to think, "They want me dead"

My mental health was on a thread

Depression filled up all my head

I wished the pain would finally end

Yes I'm weird, I'll admit it

Write sad lines, and then I spit it

It's like, now they can finally get it!

But, now I'm good, I don't wanna fit in

I've been a loser all my life

I've been rejected all my life

Never been accepted in my life

But, now my true form comes to life

I'm not a fan of all of thesе new guys

I wanna think, "I'm better than you guys!"

I wanna think, "I'm feelin' happy!"

But I can't think that, bеcause I am not happy!

I pull up a cam, and look at my face

Look at me! I'm so fake!

But nobody sees it

It's therapy season!

You want album 3? Then give me a reason!

[Verse]

Why should I bother stressin' again?

Why should I wake up depression again?

Won't be like 7, not a blessin' again

I dressed that up, I ain't dressin' again

I like 'Outro' on 'Long Way To Go'

My personal best on 'Long Way To Go'

That album was real, but I called it a joke

Can't say how I feel, cuz they think it's a joke

"He's TT, he can't feel a thing!"

I pour out my heart every time that I sing

I wanna feel numb, and get me a drink

Get drunk, black out! And not even think

But why would I do that? Listen to me

Pull up a chair and listen to me

I'm not hypocritical, I'm never typical

Just sayin' syllables, they say that I'm lyrical

"But you don't got the bars, you don't got the flow"

That's fine, I didn't ask you to show your opinion, so you gotta go

"Why aren't you famous?"

I don't even know

I'm pretty young, and I'm doin' a lot

Thank you to those who ain't give me a shot

These past 2 years, I grew up a lot

I learned not to be somebody I'm not

But time changes, I'm gettin' older

Got a spine, and I'm gettin' bolder

Cold bars, and I'll spit it colder

I feel like fame tried to tap my shoulder

It'll come back around, I'll ignore it again

Emotions high, and I'll pour it again

I scored one time, and I'll score it again

My life has hope, I'm restorin' again

Oh, now that I'm open, you feelin' me now?

Shame on you, your a part of the crowd

I got over you, and you wantin' me now?

I'm so good! What you think of me now?

Am I still the fat kid who ruined your life?

Am I still that kid who you ruined twice?

Am I still the one who don't got any friends?

Bet you feel dumb, I live in your head

I live in your head every day of the week

You sent me a voicemail, I had that on repeat

You said that we done, but we never started

I didn't do music, so look what you started!

Thank you A, you gave me fame

Thank you A, you gave me a name

Let's all thank her, now I got a career!

All cuz I wrote how you said I'm weird

But, enough about her, she is not relevant

Thank God for music, I think that it's Heaven sent

I wanna live rich, so my dinners are elegant

I wanna be known, so I won't ever sell again

I wanna say thank you for countin' me out

I just wanna know what the doubtin's about

I just wanna talk, but you drownin' me out

But you postin' for me, and you shoutin' me out

I don't want the clout

I've always been real

I gotta keep talkin' about how I feel

Or maybe my past days, never a fast day

I woke up and prayed that it was my last day

But thanks for the hate, it's makin' me great

I can finally say that I'm in the right state

Got this state of mind, I was walkin' blind

Blind to the hate, droppin' 'Real' to remind!

I wanna be real, when I'm turnin' it up

No drugs or drinks, never throwin' it up

Give me a rapper, I'm showin' him up

I started below, now I'm goin' above

My whole school loves me, I'm showin' em sounds

Sophomore year, they called me a clown

Junior year, I kinda felt down

But, senior year, now, where is my crown?

Quarantine came, and I'm doin' the most

Like the old me left, and I am a ghost

Depression hit me, so I hit him back harder

Got rid of depression, I think that I'm smarter

But, I know it'll come back, depression will come

I shed all my weight from my therapy runs

I have trauma, I've seen all the guns

My life's full of drama, my life isn't fun

"No way bro, you're fakin' your lyrics!"

Do you think that I care if you even hear this?

"Haha; Oh, you were serious?"

Uh, you might be delirious

I've heard all the hate, and I push it aside

"The earth would be better if you weren't alive!"

Do you not know that I thought suicide?

So, that's why I'm real, that is the drive

I'm not always real, once, I was fake

I did a collab, and looked her in the face

She took it too far, and abused my name

She lost her only shot at the fame

I'm opening texts that have sat on my phone

I know that I'm known, but I still feel alone

I don't have somebody I can call my own

I'm feelin' the pain, and I can't even cope

Nobody helped when I put out a cry

Gave them 'Most Hated' , they called it a lie

I hated myself while writing that track

I had no friends, I'd never go back

It's crazy to me, I'm makin' em treasure me

I really became who they said I would never be

I don't listen to hate, cuz you can't ever get to me

I'm workin' all day, and I'm makin' a better me

I don't know why, but I feel so depressed

Like the weight on my body is all on my chest

I feel like I felt about 2 years ago

My days are the same, they goin' by slow

I don't go to sleep, I'm hearin' the birds cry

I don't give time to haters, cuz they are not worth mine

I need a spot in the game, I need to ensure mine

I outed myself, go back to the third line!

I'm so real on 'Memory Lane'

I wanna forget, but the memory stays

Let's take a walk down my memory lane

This my life, 'bout every day

Got rid of depression, I'll have it again

Talk down on me, and I'll back it again

I got the bread, and I'll stack it again

Got album 3, I'll be at it again

Writin' this album, I'm not gonna lie

Every song, it made me cry

I found happiness, but it's leavin' again

Leavin' again with no reason again

I'm lookin' for smiles, I'm searchin' for hope

Maybe I'll find it, maybe I won't

I wanna be happy, but Ima be real

None of you know me, or know how I feel!