[Verse 1]:

Deep down I feel like a monster

Why won't you help me

Cuz it's hard enough for me

In my head, in my thoughts, in words

And I don’t get to see you so often

And I feel so cold

Because it's hard enough for me

In my head, in my thoughts, in words

Feeling so miserable

Teach me the ways to your heart, the ways to your mind, quit wasting my time

It's a miracle

All the lies that I've been through

You were too busy, breaking my heart, infecting my mind, I'm chasing my soul

[Pre-Chorus]:

All the times that I had to say amen

I was cold and you still left me aimless

On the scenе I was afraid to talk

I was keeping all the words in my head

[Chorus]:

Deep down I feel like a monstеr

Why won't you help me

Cuz it's hard enough for me

In my head, in my thoughts, in words

And I don’t get to see you so often

And I feel so cold

Because it's hard enough for me

In my head, in my thoughts, in words

[Verse 2]:

And it filled my heart full of hatred

Now I think about the time that wasted

No light on my skin cuz

All I see are visions, yeah, they got me blinded

[Bridge]:

Do you ever get this feeling in your chest?

Like trying hard to breathe

But you ain't got nothing left

Now you're crying in your shower

And you're thinking 'bout your ex

Feeling pushed against the wall

And life has got you by the neck

[Verse 3]:

I miss the times when we'd go out and play

I miss the times when we didn't care 'bout the fakes

The memories, yeah, I got them engraved in my brain

Telling me why it's not the same

No matter how many phone calls we make

The fact is that things will never be saved

Let’s just put a pause on life, let’s start walking by

Before I end up in my grave

[Verse 4]:

Falling behind, can't reach to me

And I'm tryna find the piece to peace

Caught me looking at you like na na na

You got me magical like ta da da

And you're not an enemy to me

I just miss the friends we used to be

Maybe I'm just dreaming too much, maybe I'm just seeing too much

Tasting life, I'm feeling so priceless

Will my life end at the end of a rifle?

As the time bends, I'mma spend all the right words

On the right ones

Tell me, what is my life worth?

When I think about you, I think of pretty flowers

And every time that we kiss, yeah, you give me power

[Chorus]:

Deep down I feel like a monster

Why won't you help me

Cuz it's hard enough for me

In my head, in my thoughts, in words

And I don’t get to see you so often

And I feel so cold

Because it's hard enough for me

In my head, in my thoughts, in words