I can feel it killing me

Least I know I’ll kill it back

There’s thrill in that

Channel the will of Mac then send it off

Meant to have ought

Hold it in, control the wind then mend the cough

Scented scoff

Temperament is rented like invented gods

Sittin in the synagogue admittin the fraud

Fraught with covering the hidden applause

Got up under sinning, puppeted a hell of a show

Intermission was odd

Switch flicker, back in the sheets for the peak

Live whats taught

Times of whеn I think of her

Make a list, that shit is long

Didn’t want to sacrifice in liеu of when I did her wrong

Rude to have accepted defeat then alluded to some hope

She was swimming I was drowning

Wishing she had threw some rope

Grief and too much room to cope

I’d just renewed the lease on life

And then it all went up in flames

A reprieve with depleted lights

So leave the ice below the veins

It holds the pain at bay

Don’t have to go, don’t hate to stay

Just look at the growth I made today

Trust the reoccurrence of it

Don’t deter the subject

I want to flourish public

Right beside you

And I’m sorry for every time I remind you

I’m scared that if you hide I’m never gonna find you

Prepared then not to die

The weight of all the grief is more immediate than ever

I swear that I’m not repeating it

Lately been the neediest

That’s because I can’t find whats remediate

Deny repudiation, not conceiving it

Turned to trepidation quick

Relieving isn’t in the deck

A card to a house that’s one away from collapse

A rebuild is a steep expense

Cheap suspense

I don’t want to make a mother lovin thing

Mother loving me thru thick and thin

Endured another spring

Hear the birds sing, the wolf cries, goodbye to the ring

The collective infinite testament of forever’s brink

Say the vow, toast, clink

Then there’s now, got the chinks in the armor

It was worth it and it still is

Antiquate the silence with the stillness

Won’t defend a fate if we don’t end this break, I hate it

I became the mess I laid in

Eyes invested on the pavement

I should save-it-In-definitely with you

Nah, it's too belated