Every time I check my phone

And there’s no blinking red dot

Takes a year off my life

To a feeling once forgot

I’ll stoke the flames with music recs

And see if they respond

Left side empty, a heart react

I like boys with hair dirty blonde

Oh and I’ve never felt love but i know that’s a lie

This co-dependent endless yearn has sabotaged my mind

And I never give up and i never rеally try

This co-dependent еndless yearn has sabotaged my mind

I’ll meet them in the backseat

Of someone else’s car

I'll feel the lips of someone strange

So close and yet so far

His mouth tastes like a breath mint

And his hands make me feel small

I’m still surprised we got this far

I thought he liked them tall

And when i wake up in his bedroom

And blame it on a dream

I’ll take a swim in blue eyes

And won’t say i mean

I’ll think of all the ghosts I’ve met

The faces on a screen

And never hear from him again

I just want to be seen

Ooh and I’ve never felt love but i know that’s a lie

This co-dependent endless yearn has sabotaged my mind

I never give up and i never really try

This co-dependent endless yearn has sabotaged my mind