(Verse 1)

Up late no sleeping

Can’t escape my feelings

Trapped in a cycle it’s always repeating

The thoughts that I keep in

My head haunt my dreams and

I’ll keep them inside cos I’m so bad at speaking

Left all the drugs in the past, yeah

But I’m always afraid to relapse, yeah

And they’re always on my mind

Spend my nights looking back

Dwelling on the days when I wasn’t so sad

(Hook)

I feel like I’m dying so slowly (so slowly)

And I don’t think my friends even know me (no lie)

I'm waiting for someone to show me (to show me)

A reason to feel like I’m worthy (of life)

(Bridge)

I was laid in thе hospital

With no one to talk at all

Suicidal thoughts in my head seemed so logical

Likе who really cares if I’m gone

Cos I’m trying my best to hold on

(Verse 2)

I’ve got trauma from childhood but no one believes me

You ever watched your neighbour get murdered on TV?

Ever heard a gunshot so loud late at night

Cos his friend couldn’t cope and he wanted to die?

My friend had a sister got hit by a train

And she wasn’t alone when she died on that day

Watching a family go through so much pain

Makes my own problems seem trivial and pale

The scars from my past they still haunt me today

At 16 years old when I thought I was gay

And I went for a drink with a man twice my age

Blacked out and woke up and knew I’d been (argh)

And for years after that I was angry and sad

Never said a word bout the troubles I had

Felt too ashamed to find answers

So it ate me inside like a cancer

(Verse 3)

My cousin was killed and it broke me inside

Knew that he’d been all alone when he died

I went to his funeral and saw with my eyes

What it did to my family broke down and cried

And all of my life I feel something is missing

Making these songs cos I know no ones listening

Close myself off and I make myself distant

Plan out a way to escape my existence