[Verse 1]

Man I'm scared to even write this

How am I gonna perform this? I hope everyone adores this

When I burst through the door and

Share every feeling that I ever felt before you

Spotlight in my cornea

Now it's melting my brain, wanna hide in the corner

But I just can't afford it

If I don't leave my signature, someone will forge it

And I just can't force it, I've had my hand held too much

For the past four years, had my social life sitting in my handheld too much

And they call that avoiding the conflict, I thought I was comfortable

Cause if you don't talk to people you don't have to find out they don't fuck with you

Tryna keep my self esteem up, but the truth

In this world, you won't survive in this world

Cause you can't shine like them diamonds and pearls

Mama wonder why I have trouble finding a girl

Cause the female language is kinda like some riddle shit

And this Twitter shit starts to get intimate

I admit, hit this chick up for a little bit

Slid into the DMs, like "baby I'm the BM"

So maybe could you give me your heart

Or at least just hit that like button

You could be my shining star

Cause the favorite tell me that you like something

Hear voices and new faces, starts to get scary then

Like I'm so used to being alone, I never had imaginary friends

A deer caught in the headlights

Tryna get the head right, so I'm here every night

All my homies looking fresh

And they slick with the shits

What I gotta do to get like, get like

You? I wanna get like you

This skin I'm stained in tryna change it

Behind that, it's hollow and vacant

Strangled in chains til I fade into vapor

Cause it's water were made of

And I'm drowning every day

And I'm thinking the easiest way is just getting away

Instead of face it, like I always say it, but it's nothing true

I been saying this over and over, still ain't nothing new

Can't judge a man by his words but his actions

God-damn, I have not the former, neither the latter

So what do I have now?

This presentation

And all of this personal shit that I've been facing

Just face it

Been telling myself to just face it

And I always wanna tell her

One day it'll get better

Cause I been through what you been through

You just gotta keep your head up

But I don't really know her like that

So when I get the urge, I fight that

Why am I always like that?

Insecurities kill me, I gotta fight back

But I'm just too God-damn afraid

Why am I always so afraid?