Cream

It controls me, it my existence

My purpose the reason I breathe

The reason I believe and the path to succeed, it's all I need

I woke up on the blindside

Was blind to the bright lights

All those nights staring out the terrace

Embarrassed of my status

Made sure it wouldn't stay the way it was

I didn't do it just because

I took risks took chances

Played the game by ransom

Cuz Opurtunitys are never handed

Changing up like the guards

Knew the finer things weren't a fassod

Found a whole new way to rob

Thinks clicking starting to succeed

Plans got completed

Continued to proceed

Everything was breeding

Coming to fruition

Life started speeding

Put into position

All I had to to do was lay low

But u know how the story goes

Once u get Tht feeling its like blow

Get addicted but never know

No one knew not even the family

If only they did how could they look at me

I apologize to the ones I've left behind

And to my son who commuted suicide, I cried

Many tears, doing so many years

If only I had such fears

Listened to my peers

If I just had swallowed my pride

And lord knows I tried

But u can see it my eyes that

Hook

And now I stand a new man

New focus new plan

I hope they understand

But how can they forgive

And forget

How could they love and not have debt

I'm saying everyone deserves a second chance

But deep down I have no regrets

And I know that seems harsh

But u have to feel that taste

That power I had did u see there faces?

All the places I would go and the people I payed with

See it wasn't really bout the money but more about the thrill

And none of u can Judge till u get that feel

Those are moments to kill for

When life feels more than just knock outs

Ur now on top of billboards

Headed North and everything is south

Ur paranoid but how can u stop now?

Getting more salad than croutons

An you've accepted ur role as the villain like lebron

And I've seen the interviews

And the news

Even the one on the view

With my son Andrew

He said he could never forgive me

No matter how I approached him

And I hope he hears this

Cuz that broke my heart in pieces

Or it would have if I wasn't so Teflon

Prisoner of my own bond

Heart colder than Omarion's

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No where I hide

So the times Is on my side

The cycle continues

The pain is controlling

Won so many hands

But left so many open

Closed so many doors

Not even the homes

Stole so much

Not even talking the loans

Ill beat my self up but I can't turn back

All i can do is face the facts