Built all the hate and resentment

Let it die down, now i'm a shell of a person

Hard to write verses with no feelings to work with

Personality was broken, now i'm trying to nurse it

Trying to morph it

Successfully did it but i'm lost when i'm alone for a minute

Infected perspective

By the same damn perception

A cruel circle i'm stuck in

Man i'm scared to be honest

They tell me it is all in the mind

But a mind grows strong

Over the time

Not sure what i'm hoping to find

Everytime i rhyme is entirely inside of the right

When a pencil is dull you sharpen to give it more life

Every song that i write

Shaves a piece of my fight

Cause i've done up my part

By the way that i like

And

For a moment i stop hurting inside

I promise you this is it

We were hanging with our crew when we was just little kids

I remember i told you my dreams in the show biz

(you) said please know this

Shits ridiculous

Got red in the face

You and that dream were the 2 things i chased

I made a choice that day now you're seeing my chance and wanting to come back to stay

No

Man i know what youre feeling

Hold all of mine up (feelings) and beyond to the ceiling

Funny thats exactly what i'm seeing through my vision and its dark like the rest of my lights and my mind as i'm looking for the reason

My

Mood changes like seasons

Not bi polar they said then the fuck am i feeling

Bi polar would give me a reason

Whats wrong with me

Clarity came with a fee

What im seeing is - scary

Would close my eyes if i am so daring

If i am dreaming then i am night marin

Music blaring

And every body is staring

To see if i crash down

Or go big from the states west to paris

Maybe the radios will play it

If i hit the right lyric

If somebody hears it

I want something new from the taste of pain booze

Want something to lose

An d ineed something soon

Something more than just food

To satisfy my hunger thats making me blue

I need you

And thats exatcly how im feeling

No matter how i put it

No matter the rhyme scheming

The same feeling is linging

And its gotton me kneeling and stealing

What other rappers have been dealing

But i won't lie

Its helping me healing and revealing everything that i've been concealing

So as long as i'm willing

To keep rapping and chillin

I

I think i'm a new man

Feeling like i'm on the moon

Now i can't find my way back to the land

If i feel challenged now

Then you betcha i'm doomed

If i feel so down

Then you bet i'ma hang off the roof

I'm a o.d on the vibes inside of the room

Killing my lines like i'm an oilfield pipeline dude

Oh man, t o n y

Aren't you that trickstaer guy

I think that i need

Uh

A little time

Since you're so damn good

You should be on the radio

Honestly i think that you put on a show

Even though you aren't really professional

And don't have a good flow

And im only saying this because i don't want to be mean to you

But

One day it will be true

So keep working and you'll be there

And for the meanwhile ill lie to your face and laugh at your raps

Yeah

You dont' what i've been through

I am open

But at the same time i'm closed too

Its hard to

Tell people my problems

Because i know others got it worse

So i try not to show due to lack of endorse

So when i was at my lowest i flew east on the one four (14)

They opened the door

Told me damn did they miss me

Did a lot of shit

And did my misery

Go

Man was it was gone

I wanna feel it again so i did it through songs

And although i'm not good to the point of a god

Im enjoying myself as im expressing my thoughts