I see now, I see now

What I've lost control of

It crumbles, it crumbles

Any answer I could throw up

Lost count of the days that fly

It's hard on me, getting sleep, getting by (ha)

I laugh away the pain as I smile wide

But if I say what's on my mind

You'd be too busy diagnosing to hear me cry, hah

Stop preaching like you know what is right

It's all blurry lines, so I'll do as I like

And I don't care if it's sickening

This face is the really real me

I'm done denying it

I don't want to hide away

I want to know the real you, so

Let's go someplace with moral lines erased

Cuz if I stay here, at this rate, I'll go insane

This city's starving me and all of my dreams

Up from thе ash, my final play, I'm ending this game

To my old life, I say goodbyе

No looking back this time, come tonight

You and I will get through this someway

Our hearts and fates intertwined, now let's escape

As I pray, somehow, someday, we'll be together

My messy heart stays hidden far behind a roar of laughter as I fall apart

And with a whisper, you spoke

The stage is set for a Plot Twist, cameras roll

What a joke, I choke a laugh the whole night through

I threw my youth and hopes and dreams away there's nothing left to lose

I'm just an empty page, my name's erased, my future's torn in two

You see, the truth is: I'm so sick I pray you'll have to suffer soon

I don't know myself these days

I only know there's nothing left for me but misery

Burning my brain, can't look away, the truth engraved

Into a heart that can't take the pain

Crawling out of Hell, each bitter flame has led to this day

And even though I've buried hope

Tomorrow's sewn a bud of faith upon its grave

And so, I keep on praying

That you and I are still tied by heart and fate

Even though I know we'll never be, I can't let go

My messy heart stays hidden far behind a roar of laughter as I fall apart

And with a whisper, you spoke

The stage is set for your Plot Twist, cameras roll

My Insomnia has got me up, I can't sleep

I cry the nights away, feels nice to feel something

I won't regret a single tear I shed. Instead, let them shine, let them dream

Up from the ash, my final play, I'm ending this game

To my old life, I say goodbye

No looking back this time, come tonight

You and I will get through this someway

Our hearts and fates intertwined, now let's escape

As I pray, somehow, someday, we'll be together

My messy heart stays hidden far behind a roar of laughter as I fall apart

And with a whisper, I spoke

The stage is set for my Plot Twist, cameras roll