All I Can Do - Intellectual

I laid my gaze on the flesh of your blue-veined breast

I let my hand slip down your waist

Down to touch the hem of your dress

My other hand reached around the back

Of your neck too loose the buttons there

And that's when I noticed you weren't moving

Not easing up close to me

Not talking nasty stories all low and soft and steamy

Not saying nothing

Stiff

Staring

Like some kind of traumatized child

You cry when I touch you

You lie there and pray I'll take my hands away

You lie still and whisper

"If I turn into wood I can wish you away,"

Sometimes you look just like you did that

Day in thе third grade when they took your

Picturе, but you weren't there because

You'd gone

You'd gone away, you've got that I-been-hurt-but-I-don't-believe-it look

You've got that you-might-touch-me-but-I'll-never-feel-it look

But my hands aren't his rough hands

My face not his rough face

My voice not his singing threats

Your eyes are wide

You've gone away

Just like you used to when he would touch you

Floating above us there you can watch us

Under me lies someone I don't know

Someone I've seen a few times before

What do you feel when I back you up

Against the wall in the kitchen

My leg pressed between yours?

Do you feel him push you, do you see the

Pictures of him as he stands with his feet wide apart

His hand on your shoulder, his belt in his hand?

What do you hear when I tell you "Kiss me,"?

The hiss of his belt pulled through his belt loops

The click of the buckle, the sound of his

Ominous, gravely chuckle?

I'm not that prick wielding his dick like

Some kind of weapon, I'm not the sick

Bastard that did this to you, I'm not him it's

Only me. I hate him, I love you, I'll kill him

I want you, I want you, I want you to live

We'll make him pay now

We'll burn his house down

We'll make him grovel

With a gun to his temple

Your daddy

I know you hate

Hate me to hate him

That hate stays safe in daughter's hate reserves

All I can do is wait in the trenches to

Retrieve the body of daddy's girl

All I can do is cover you

I know you love her

All I can do is cover you

I'm not god, I'm just your lover

All I can do is cover you