Got so much pain hidden deep down inside

It's turning me rotten (Turning me rotten)

It's hard when I touch up that weakening side

It's never forgotten (Nah, Nah)

I got some friends who are no longer with me (What)

Hide up the pain with some laughter and kidding (What)

Sometimes I just need somebody to listen

But I don't show feelings so I get real distant (Uh-huh)

Mentally hurting but I keep a smile and laughter (That's facts)

I know some people are going through worse

So I say it don't matter (That's facts)

Too much time placing my dawgs to the front

I was just working backwards (Back, back)

Loving the fact that they all going up

Now I'm climbing that ladder (Yessuh)

I want to be a big artist

Influence children to form up they visions

And make they decisions so they work they hardest

Live like a king with the words that I'm speaking

Never took breaks I stayed working on weekends

Woke up one day and I thought I was dreaming

I was real happy and ain't know the meaning

The devil against me he plotting and scheming (Yuh)

But god got me, he hold me down (Ok)

I never thought that I would make it

Now I run this town (Yessuh)

Got so much pain hidden deep down inside

It's turning me rotten (Turning me rotten)

It's hard when I touch up that weakening side

Its never forgotten (Never forgotten)

I got some friends who are no longer with me (Yuh)

Hide up the pain with some laughter and kidding (Yuh)

Sometimes I just need somebody to listen

But I don't show feelings so I get real distant (Yuh, yuh)

Ok call my music trash (What)

See I'm tryna speak emotions while my feelings last (Yessuh)

Funny thing bout your opinion is I didn't ask (Ok)

And y'all way too overrated to get put on blast but

If you got a problem with me why you listening

You claim you 'gon support and then you bully when you with your friends

It's cool cause all the fake ones on my wave, I just got rid of them

They try to seem real sweet and then get spicy like some cinnamon (Whoo)

Let's put that aside

They won't shake my hand cause they hold up the pride

Women, they love me, the men hate the vibe

No wonder they jealous when Trey 'gon arrive

Life ain't going as expected (What)

Scratching friends right off the checklist (What)

I wish that I got the message

Cause I'm getting used like it was leverage (Yessuh)

See the pressure and its taking over

Tried to be like Drizzy but I can't Controlla

Yea my music garbage but I start to show up

And got many people saying imma blow up (Let's go)

I'm just a kid from New York

Came from a borough that's known to be Brooklyn (Uh huh)

Some people don't understand me

Saw Heat in Miami and best believe I got to cooking (Ok)

Rest In Peace Bora and Jada

I love y'all to death and y'all both to ahead of y'all time (Yessuh)

But also to Yvan and Nana

I still can not channel the fact that y'all out of my life (RIP)

Got so much pain hidden deep down inside

It's turning me rotten (Rotten)

It's hard when I touch up that weakening side

Its never forgotten (Never forgotten)

I got some friends who are no longer with me

Hide up the pain with some laughter and kidding

Sometimes I just need somebody to listen

But I don't show feelings so I get real distant

(I get real distant)

(NxtUp)