Stuck with my thoughts

Man im stuck with my shit

Same old stuff

And im think i might quit

But i think i might stay

Cos its all i really got

And its all i really want

And i hope it dont stop like

Hope you dont start

Dont wanna start fightin

Seen it all enough

But now im enlightened

Never felt good

Bout myself, im a mess

People sayin i look good

But i always second guess

Yeah im second rate to anything

Its better than me

Im struggling with everything

Its dark, i can't see

Yeah colour, i struggle

Everythings a fight

Why'd you have to make things difficult

Didn't ask even say goodnight

And you make me feel so bad

About things i haven't said

And i cry about it every night

Cos i want you out my head

But you stay with me instead

And you're toxic, call it lead

And i think about u everyday

I just want you dead like

Ay

Maybe that was harsh

Im sorry

Cos i cherish that time

We would spend

With eachother

Get a monster

Stay awake

Down another

Cos im towniee, i got problems

Ain't sortin them for shit

Took your shovel, that shits iron

And you made my heart a pit

Then you took a diamond sword

And you cut into my heart

Id like to speak to people

But i got no clue where to start

And my friendships always end

In a spectacular disaster

Like i didn't take your girlfriend

Im courteous, i asked her

And when i was 7

I was bullied for my looks

And now im 14

Nothings changed in the books

And im a cunt, can't help it

Push all my friends away

No wonder they all leave

And why im crying all day

But im sorry to the people

That ive been a dickhead to

I can't help it, im fucked up

And i blame it all on you

And i blame it on the people

Who took control of my ways

Now these minutes turn to hours

And these hours turn to days like