[Intro]

(Yo)

[Verse 1]

I took a celibate oath

To never fuck my life up again with meds or the coke

Too much blood on the hands and red on the cloak

And I'm just tryin' to scurry the land and wash the red in the moat with soap

Let the suds begin to cover and coat

Lather and rinse until the sin has had its time to revoke

Life is a joke

That's why my smile stays delirious

And why I take pride in askin' "why so serious?"

Seriously?

Objects are more stressful than they appear to be

In the rearview mirror, so leave it be

And be the weirdest freak you possibly can

Chug beer and be a bearded geek

As long as you never sweat it when you're tryin' to keep your self-esteem

A simple set of three steps, an easy recipe

But it's up to you if you're going to accept the steam or let it freeze

Now I can lend every ingredient you'll ever need

But it's your demeanor that precedes you starving or eating a festive feast

[Chorus]

And I am not afraid to die

I'm just a little weary of livin' and never really feelin' alive

And I am not afraid to die

I'm just a little weary of livin' and never really feelin' alive

[Verse 2]

I see a pinch of faith in a gray cloud

With a haze shrouded around it

Thick mounds so it phases out any ray of sun

That tries to get crazy and make its rounds

'Cause that light's pulling through whether it's hours or some days from now

A perfect perception of perseverance

I been learning lessons, searching for realness and personal clearance

Purposeful feelings act as surgical healings

My verbs let me breathe in

No matter how steep that deep end gets

I gotta keep those breaths

I'll rent some scuba gear and put it in a shoebox with a few rocks

To keep flows fresh, this as real as Toad gets

And if I ever opened up, you'd be sure to have a mess to clean

Out of all the songs containing levity

This the first one with vulnerability from little pesky me

Pessimistic with old records for some

Aesthetically pleasing home-dweller, a recluse

And there's no place I'd rather be

[Chorus]

And I am not afraid to die

I'm just a little weary of livin' and never really feelin' alive

And I am not afraid to die

I'm just a little weary of livin' and never really feelin' alive

[Verse 3]

But

I spent a lot of time wallowing, hollowing out these memories

Following every demon while polishing off these scented trees

Lest we forget I'm on borrowed time

So technically, if tomorrow I die, I'd be happy with this messy streak

Blessed be to every tragedy experienced

And every tab of acid that ever had me near-delirious

A little lesson learned about being open-minded

In my spine lies the bindings, reminders of all the hopeful times

Like with the crew back at Ace's house

The place was made a sacred lounge, the regulars were safe and sound

Pills with weights and pounds, ounces never baking

Rounds of Jäger 'til we faded and we're face down, down and out

But we made it somehow, escape the fate

'Cause there's no way we weren't supposed to die in 2008

Funny now lookin' back at the paths that we've taken

'Cause I wouldn't change a thing for all the laughs we created

[Chorus]

And I am not afraid to die

I'm just a little weary of livin' and never really feelin' alive

And I am not afraid to die

I'm just a little weary of living a lie