Everyone that you know

Will someday go

Every single leaf in the trees

Will fall

When winter comes

Every word you said

Like "move on, my friend"

Is spinning in my head

And every single day

My laments

Are itching on my friends

So I'll stay mute

And I'll let the pain acute

Hope it's gonna fade away

It starts again

To fade away into oblivion

But I crash my car into a wall

Made of aerosol

And that gas in the air

Is making me fall back into the old ways

Every day that I waste

Absorbed in this void

Could give me the taste

Of what I've been searching for

Every face you once knew

Will be a picture in your phone

And by the age you get retired

You'll likely be in a nursing home

Complaining about your pension

Cause you didn't work hard enough

You didn't realize the world spins around

So those friends

When you were 12

Will long be gone

Nice while it lasted

Maybe you had too much fun

Time is such a silly game

It makes you feel

You're stuck in a moment

But it still flies

Over your head

And you don't get to stop it

I think I deserve -

I don't deserve shit

Entangled in their affairs

I need to get out of there

And I keep on holding on

And I keep on hiding it back

But I can't find a way out

If I keep it in the backseat of my heart

And it starts to feel that

It's not the exception, it's the rule

Maybe I'm doomed to fail

Finding a heart to feel in bloom

And history repeats itself

I don't need to hear it

I see it with my own eyes

From the way I keep running back to her

To the way she goddamn cries

But if these words hang by a thread

And our lines are barely tangent

But still, they intersect

And we need a third

To actually say a word

Don't you think I realize?

I just wanna be heard

I just wanna be loved

We don't share that much in common

We barely have a real talk

I need a real talk with my heart

Only after that, maybe I'll come back

And the way we're all gonna separate

In a couple of months from now

Life has been good so far

But it hasn't been good enough?

There's always something missing

Unsaid words with deep regrets

Falling deeper in the ocean

Full of sunken friends

And I think I think my way through

But I'm just stumbling around

I say "I don't need a mate, I need you"

But I still wonder why I'm stuck to the ground?

And I wrote the same song for three years now

Some variety is all they want

I got material for thirty more songs

But they're unlikely to see the light

In love they trust and for love they fight

I, for one, lost my hopes

That I'll ever catch a smile

Without telling my dumb jokes

That I'll ever make her smile

In the way she deserves

Yeah, today's probably a full moon outside

So what?

Look at me, all self-absorbed

I can't even win the fight with my heart

My brain seems victorious

Until it gets stabbed in the back

And oh, how they tried

To get me back on track

But I'm at a crossroad

Yet I know what I should do

I failed my destination

So can I ask you about you?

And I can feel it in my bones

That I know she barely knows

How hard I can fuck things up

She's the best for not giving me a chance at that

And I can feel it in my feet

That we're simply put, unfit

Not the best match as they say

How could we be? We've barely talked since May

Or at least something other than

"Hey, are you okay?"

And I wished I could say

"No, I'm not, I needed you"

But somehow, and I'm glad

I managed to keep my mouth shut

For once, I managed to not completely screw it up

Like I got used to already

Could she fill in the gap?

No, she most definitely could not

I know I'm a question without answer

That much I know for now

So, like I said, I know I repeat myself

Like I know we'll never be

Like I know we don't talk anything fruitful

Like I pretend I know she

Like I know we wouldn't work out

Cause we're so different

And yet, I'm stuck

In this exhaustingly boring clusterfuck

Now that I got that out of the way

I look at the future I try to escape

It's torturing me with its haze

Who will be my friends

At the end of our days?

Will I even know your face

If I meet you in the street

Will you even remember the place

Where we used to meet?

My friends are few and far in between

And I'm afraid our roads will get thin

And we'll walk on threads till they break

And then you'll realize nylon is fake

And countries will separate us

And we'll fight till they mend

But even then, we feel the distance

So we're closing in to the end

I don't want that moment to come

And I sure wouldn't want it to last

I'd rather be stuck in today

Than in another day's past

But what is the point of all this fight?

Basically, it's just rambling through life

Distracted till I die

But I know I'll die fulfilled

Wherever I am

And I know my end

Is just another beginning

So now I'm on a quest

To become a better man

I wanna help you in any way that I can

Maybe if I distract myself just for too long

I'll be getting over it, finally moving on

This is the last stanza, I promise you that

I won't focus on what I could've had

I'll focus on working every step of the way

Making you and I glad in a thousand different ways