[Hook]
Father hear this troubled witness, fully circle my existence
One can run the farthest distance
You can take your hate with this one
Father hear this troubled witness, fully circle my existence
One can run the farthest distance
You can take your hate with this one
[Verse 1]
I’m just a kid on the block, minding my business
Making some good grades
Ain’t never been a hinderance
But some say I’m soft, good grades emasculate
They say “I like swag” reason to hate me
“I speak to well,” “I act too white”
‘Cause I love the Glee club, and I hate to fight
I’m a scientific misfit, nerd they call “sissy”
Academic honor roll, church boy, so they diss me
Cops say I need to man up, fight back
But I’m here to go to school, not for physical combat
I carry 9’s in math, don’t need it in my backpack
Some days I wanna die, and so I’m gonna get a gat
Everyday in school is a war zone
“Leave no child behind” I say leave this child alone
Been pushed to the edge of a chair with a noose
Finally got a gat that one day I’m gonna use on a [?]
[Hook]
Father hear this troubled witness, fully circle my existence
One can run the farthest distance
You can take your hate with this one
Father hear this troubled witness, fully circle my existence
One can run the farthest distance
You can take your hate with this one
[Verse 2]
I’m just a number in the system
Shit I’m a pilgrim
Thrown around, too many homes with no income
I got these symptoms; they say I’m angry
Hell, I’m a victim and this is what you’ve made me
Be that my foster dad beat me, rape me, defeat me, degrade me
Send me to hell, if you want Satan to raise me
I’m tortured daily. No family to shade me
Forget it, just erase me
Bedtime stories, kisses on the forehead
Houselights out, daddy want a little more head
I had never lashed out
In fact, the boys yesterday, they got the mash out
Pulled your pants down since you like your ass out
Can buy six of ‘em now by my last count
My future ain’t a thing that nobody gave a damn ‘bout
Don’t want your pity tear drops or your handouts
Trust me, I’ma find a way for me to stand out
Shit, I’m a bully, a monster
And now I honor thy father
From seeds he has planted and demons I harbor
My actions and deeds give you reasons to bother
[Hook]
Father hear this troubled witness, fully circle my existence
One can run the farthest distance
You can take your hate with this one
Father hear this troubled witness, fully circle my existence
One can run the farthest distance
You can take your hate with this one
[Verse 3]
Four fights later, five bloody noses, two death threats
Nighttime, I lost focus
One principle visit where he says it’s my fault
‘cause I wear skinny jeans and my voice kina soft
Tired of the back routes on the way home
Tired of the [?], sick of the broken bones
Tired of the prayer “Father can you hear me?”
Even preachers say “Jesus don’t answer sissys”
If I left this damned world, nobody would miss me
Except those that hit me, rebuke me, or diss me
What is the biggest honor be and whose?
Whose a blow a hole to my head? Which do I choose?
A victim in this cycle of bullies who’ve been abused
Hurt kids, hurt kids are hung up
We both lose. I’m smarter
I calculate the height of a jet
Leave a note “sorry mom, I don’t know if I wanna be here”
[Hook]
Father hear this troubled witness, fully circle my existence
One can run the farthest distance
You can take your hate with this one
Father hear this troubled witness, fully circle my existence
One can run the farthest distance
You can take your hate with this one