[VERSE 1]

I just want to close my eyes and sleep it away

But when I close my eyes, I see your face

Now I'm haunted by the memories I can't erase

I used to love it now I can't bare the thought of your name

And I'm stuck in my ways of taking away the pain

By pressing down with the blade and bleeding onto the page

That I'm spilling my heart to, I'm afraid to start new

I just want the pain to fade away like all of my scars do

Your presence was a blessing and then everything ended

And my impression was you didn't want the love I'm еxpressing

So I accepted it and didn't know that I'd bе descending

Into a never ending tempest of a crushing depression

I guess it's all said and done

I hate that you're not the one

So much I almost want to go and grip on a gun

I gave you all of my attention but you barely gave a fuck

I've just gotten used to feeling like I'll never be enough

And now I'm missing all the little things about you

The smell of your perfume, the messiness of your room

The way that hearing your voice would take away all the gloom

The ways that you would smile whenever you were amused

I'm staring up at the moon just wishing I could forget

The fact you even exist, instead of being the one that I miss

I just want to hear your voice

But I can't so I'll just sink into this void in my chest

[HOOK]

Didn't do nothing wrong

Been fucked up for way too long

Didn't do nothing wrong

Been fucked up for way too long

[VERSE 2]

Staring at the ceiling wishing I could numb the feeling

Of dejection, now I question if I'll ever start healing

Every night I'm fucking reeling just hoping for relief

Became dependent on a blade while I was coping with the grief

Now I'm broken and defeated, reminiscing on the times

Where there was euphoria in my lines from thinking you'd be mine

But that never fucking happened

I fell in love hard and now I'm drowning in the sadness

I can't let go and just leave you in the past tense

I know you moved on but I still have an attachment

It's killing me, I'm holding onto something that'll never be mine

I wish I could numb it all and let the memories die

But I still see your face in the depths of my mind

And I still think about you every night

But I hope you find somebody that does better than I did

I know eventually I'll have to sever the ties

To me, you are a goddess, to you, I am not shit

They say to just forget you like my feelings have an off switch

I need a way out of this pain and distress

I look at my reflection with shame and regret

Please lay me to rest, I'm just sick of it all

I lay awake at night just wishing you'd call

I want to give into the thoughts saying I should just end it

I don't belong here, I got the message

[OUTRO]

I'm sorry for everything, if someday you hear this just know

I miss you more than words can explain

And I miss how things used to be

Unfortunately I can't just turn back time to when things were all good

But yeah, once again I'm sorry for everything

I hope you find the happiness that you deserve

And I wish you the best