[Verse 1]

Lately, i lost myself

When I sink I don't even try to stop myself

I’ve learned to accept the fate

That I brought on myself, now everyday

Is like hell, thanks to this brain of mine

Bottling up all this pain inside

But the pressure will build till the bottle will burst

The cuts on my skin only beg for concern

You're witnessing therapy sessions

You're witnessing me get prepared for rejection

I dare to express it, but this is the diary

For someone without a place in society

Questioning if I should stop my sobriety

Just for a second so I can breathe finally

Tried to be happy, I tried to deflect it

But I’m fucking helpless can't fight my depression

I'm venting and you don't really have to listen

But if I don't let it out i'll make a bad decision

I'm happy for a minute then I'm back to prison

When you say it gets better is it fact or fiction

I don’t know anymore, I don’t wanna feel low anymore

My thoughts are not showing remorse

My heart is so broken and torn

I'm hoping for more than a life full of pain and despair

If we talk about hell well I’m basically there

The reaper will watch and he'll painfully stare

With his hands on my throat while he's making me scared

That i'll never be shit, and my life is a waste

My climate has changed from the brightest of days

Now I cry in the rain, all hope is lost

I’m pleading for help getting no response

[Hook]

Lately i've been lost

The pain never seems to stop

Please come save me

Lately everything I feel it breaks me

Down

My happiness is gone and it's nowhere to be found

Nowadays I feel like I should be beneath the ground

Another bottle down let it erase me

Lately, whenever I feel happy I come crashing down

[Verse 2]

Lately i just wanna die

I'm just sick of the nights where I sit there and cry

The ways that I cope I know they could be better

But it's either that or I suffer forever

The pressure inside of my head is destroying me

If you don't talk I assume you're avoiding me

Thinking I'm worthless cause no ones employing me

I'll just let my demons take over and poison me

I've been fighting temptation to use medication, cause I'm in a state of complete desolation, and pure devastation with no explanation, I guess I'm a part of a sad generation

With people who fake it to get some attention, and get more attention than kids with depression, who hide in their rooms with a knife and a death wish, just wishing they didn't feel broke and rejected, i've been on that level since I was a freshman, my life from that point took a darker direction, care more bout expressing and less bout reception, it's music or death and there's not one exception, suppressing myself is the only other option, I need to find a way to get the demons out my conscience, they're tearing me apart and they'll put me in a coffin if I fail to get em out and that's a motherfucking promise

I know that she'll never love me

Missing the days where she'd hug me, and every night wasn't bloody, and my days were sunny, and I wasn't someone they would study

To see what was wrong with me, my head's a self made atrocity, all that I give you is honesty, if you wanna dwell in my thoughts any longer, to my sanctuary is where you can follow me