[Intro]
This is patient number 0045-18389
I'm pre-recording this [?]
She told me, "Tom, why do you think you need therapy?"
[Verse 1]
All I ever asked for was some clarity
So embarrassing when mentally panicking
When you have to admit you need therapy
The question is are you prepared to see
The person I keep bottled up in me?
Anxiety that makes me feel weak
Reasons why the meds don't work for me
I'm feeling like I'm cursed but it's fucking psychotherapy
I'm wasting my time with this psychiatrist
Spit what I feel, the voice screaming is a masterpiece
If I ever drop, it's a classic instantly
All I know is I need [?] therapy
I don't really care if you're a damn [?]
You [?] live in a fucked up day dream
So before we leave, only death can bring
Start to go insane
You're going out your brain
Mentally restart to feel drained
You start to wonder what should be left to blame
Genetics were the reason, delusional fame
Or does it all come down to tolerance of hate?
Sub-consciously you feel like nothing is left to gain
Got to listen in when you lie awake at break
I just wish someone would hear what I need to say
I just can't take it anymore before I start to break
[Chorus]
I can't explain, it's like I've been lobotomized
If you glance into my eyes
You can see what a hollow and soulless like
You don't really have a choice but to swallow your pride
I've lost all autonomy and honestly it's probably 'cause of this psychiatry
The truth and clarity is that I need therapy
Embarrassing, it's absolutely devastating
[Verse 2]
Alien, un-native from the normal population
Like everything you say and do is questioned
People really think there's no madness to my method
My mean [?] is of one's obsession
They care about my illness, not the progression
[?] the kids away from me while they teaching civics
I'll do this to release my goddamn aggression
I'm over society's fucking double standards
I do this for me not anybody else
That's why I say weakly on this [?] couch
Going on and on about how the meds don't help
But refuse to change anything to get myself out this hell
Does the therapy help?
I can't seem to tell
Mentally I'm triggered like I'm hearing [?]'s bell
Self-medicating, killing these neurologic cells
Got me locked up in my mind like I'm rotting in jail
Rotting in hell
I'm living with torment
It's like all I do is reminisce misfortune
Too many things mentally I've repressed
And I wanna be alone but always crave acceptance
I'm sick of the societal social interaction
I'll shut down and don't let anyone in
My therapist says, "It's a natural reaction, just take deep breaths count from ten."
I always seem to choke on the words between my lips
I'd rather be [?] over a Freudian slip
I'm beginning to lose reality's grip
Like these pills don't [?] it's a permanent fix
I guess it's true, ignorance really is bliss
You would think I'm fucked up but I'm needing this
You would think I'm crazy after hearing this
But I'm sickly medicated, says my therapist
[Chorus]
I can't explain, it's like I've been lobotomized
If you glance into my eyes
You can see what a hollow and soulless like
You don't really have a choice but to swallow your pride
I've lost all autonomy and honestly it's probably 'cause of this psychiatry
The truth and clarity is that I need therapy
Embarrassing, it's absolutely devastating
[Verse 3]
I do this to cope
I do this to heal
I do this to delve into what's mentally real
But the bottle doesn't help and neither do the pills
Broken records on repeat asking how really I feel
I feel like I'm nothing but another statistic
While you're all too [?] psychoanalystics
Judge me all you want for taking part in this
But I got two fingers for all the fucking critics
[Chorus]
I can't explain, it's like I've been lobotomized
If you glance into my eyes
You can see what a hollow and soulless like
You don't really have a choice but to swallow your pride
I've lost all autonomy and honestly it's probably 'cause of this psychiatry
The truth and clarity is that I need therapy
Embarrassing, it's absolutely devastating