What am I thinking?

How did it come to this?

My intentions

End with bitterness

I thought I knew myself

Not anymore

What I thought I'd never do

Is what I run to

Look in the mirror

Look at who I am

I'm far away

Correction is my nemesis

Manipulation my identity

What have I become?

I'll live in ignorance

Stuck in resentment

It's getting deeper

Payback is my medicine

I'll live in ignorance

Put my life back together

If it's just me, another failure

I want out, get me out

I'm falling one more time

Harder than I ever have

I'm not thinking

I'm not listening

My intentions end in bitterness

Help me up, pick me up I'm neck deep

It's hard to say I'm failing

Justify to victimize

Deep inside I don't want you to know who I am

Hidden motives, no one knows them

Manipulation is my payback

I'm fine with what I do

At the expense of you

Deep inside, you don't see

I'm the adversary

Pick me up and break my vanity

Put me back together

I'm failing

I don't want to believe when

I'm the problem, I'm the adversary

Put my life back together

If it's just me, another failure

I want out, get me out

I'm falling one more time

Harder than I ever have

I'm not thinking

I'm not listening

My intentions end in bitterness

Help me up, pick me up I'm neck deep

It's hard to say I'm failing

Justify to victimize

Deep inside I don't want you to know who I am

I don't want you to know

There's no way out alone

No way to reconcile

Ruining myself

Resentment resides

I'm fine

Heart of stone is all I'll ever know