[Verse 1]

Grew up chasing truth, but the answers felt scripted

Every system I saw had a layer that’s missing

Tried to trust what I’m told, tried to fit in the frame

But the deeper I looked, nothing stayed the same

Thirteen years in a system built on control

Seen structure up close, how it shapes every role

Orders come down, nobody questions the source

Truth gets filtered through rank and enforced

Same pattern repeats when I look at the clinics

Symptoms get labeled, but nobody’s in it

You get ten minutes max, checklist diagnosis

Here’s a pill for the edge, we’ll ignore what the cause is

They call it imbalance, reduce it to chemicals

Strip down the mind to something mechanical

But trauma ain’t numbers and thought ain’t a switch

You can’t medicate truth when the system’s the glitch

[Hook]

They don’t want you dead, they don’t want you healed

Just stable enough so the system gets fed

Every label applied, every feeling concealed

Turn a life into data, that’s how it’s revealed

Say it’s science, say it’s help, say it’s all understood

But they barely scratch surface of what’s in the blood

I’m not lost, I just see what they don’t wanna face

It’s a controlled dose world and I can’t unsee the place

[Verse 2]

Mental health framed like a chart on a wall

Categories built just to manage us all

DSM pages define who you are

But awareness don’t fit in a diagnostic bar

You feel too much, now it’s labeled a flaw

React to the world, now you’re breaking a law

Anxiety spikes, but they don’t ask why

Just suppress the signal, keep the system in line

I’ve seen both sides, I’m not blind to the gain

Some people need help just to function through pain

But the model we built is reduction at best

Treat the branch, leave the root unaddressed

Minimal depth in what they explain

Nervous system loops, but they don’t train the brain

No one teaches presence, no one teaches control

Just compliance and scripts, not awareness of self

[Bridge]

I’m caught in between what I know and what works

Reject it completely, you risk getting hurt

Accept it blindly, you lose what is real

So I walk through the middle, aware of the deal

[Hook]

They don’t want you dead, they don’t want you healed

Just stable enough so the system gets fed

Every label applied, every feeling concealed

Turn a life into data, that’s how it’s revealed

Say it’s science, say it’s help, say it’s all understood

But they barely scratch surface of what’s in the blood

I’m not lost, I just see what they don’t wanna face

It’s a controlled dose world and I can’t unsee the place

[Outro]

Came in with nothing, I’ll leave the same way

All of this noise just dissolves in the gray

Mind in a body they try to define

But awareness is something they can’t confine