I see myself as the enemy

I'm not the same person that I was yesterday

My agency left me with a cloud of smoke

This has all got to be some kind of sick joke

When will I learn?

I keep telling myself 'everything's okay'

But I know I'm lying through my teeth

I don't need you to tell me

The darkness is surrounding me

Consuming everything

Block it out, drown it out, another bottle down

Don't matter what you say

I follow this pattern day by day

Your cries fall on deaf ears

I became the crux of all of my worst fears

The world can wait 'til I am done

I don't need you to fill my head with all your truth

So hold your tongue and keep your mouth shut

Don't remind me of what I've become

I need to forget that I'm rotting on the inside

I'll crumble if I don't push the doubt from my mind

I don't care if I amount to nothing

All that I need is the comfort that sleep brings

All that I'm good for is emptying wallets

Into their pockets, my misery profits them

Try to ignore it

I should have forseen it

My body is aching, my vision is twisting to red

Don't matter what you say

I follow this pattern day by day

Your cries fall on deaf ears

I became the crux of all of my worst fears

The world can wait 'til I am done

I don't need you to fill my head with all your truth

So hold your tongue and keep your mouth shut

Don't remind me of what I've become

I need to forget that I'm rotting on the inside

I'll crumble if I don't push the doubt from my mind

Take me back to where I belong

Between my sheets, the sweet release

(My sweet release)

I'll tell myself what I always say

When the morning comes I'll make the change

When tomorrow comes

Things won't be the same

Don't matter what you say

I follow this pattern day by day

Your cries fall on deaf ears

I became the crux of all of my worst fears

The world can wait 'til I am done

I don't need you to fill my head with all your truth

So hold your tongue and keep your mouth shut

Don't remind me of what I've become

I need to forget that I'm rotting on the inside

I'll crumble if I don't push the doubt from my mind

I can't ignore this

My guise is cracking again

My body's exacting its fucking toll on me