Feelings bottled up, messed my head up

Problems unaddressed, fucked my mind up

Feeling so alone, no one to talk to

Embarrassment and shame, I'd left it too long

Anxious and scared, how did I get this way?

This is not me, I shouldn't be this way

My tongue's tied up, can't get my words out

Humiliation, my worst nightmare

My face blushing red, I cannot stop it

My heart's pounding, I can't control it

My words make no sense and you're all laughing

I'm dripping with sweat, I've barely started

My mind has shut down and I'm all confused

Simplest requests my brain will not compute

I'm self-conscious that you're all watching

I'm paranoid that you're all listening

Suppressed thoughts will soon see the light

They torture you so late at night

They control the way you interact

Let it out whilst you still can

I did this to myself, no one else to blame

Thirteen years of torture, life pissed down the drain

Thoughts buried deep down, it'll all go away

Alcohol won't keep these thoughts at bay

Lying awake at night and I feel fuckin' sick

Just gimme one more try, I'll start again a fresh

Choices that I made, when I was a kid

Have left my head in pieces, I've had enough of it

I don't want the focus on me

I'm scared of what you'll think and see

Nightmares and dreams I'm losing teeth

I just wanna hide away from you