[Intro: The Act]

Can't stand at ease

Low self-esteem

Screen is a window

Portal to my soul

See right through me

All that's left is a hole

I hate the sound of my voice

I'm stuck with the noise

Can't stand at ease

Low self-esteem

Screen is a window

Portal to my soul

See right through me

All that's left is a hole

[Verse 1: The Act]

This is a

Critical self-reflection

Sleepless nights, result in depression

Criticizing, to the point of insanity

Extra attention, to this damn vanity

Like a detective

See every detail with an inspection

Not to mention, I remember every mistake

Ever made, every scene, every take

Recorded and stored in my memory banks

And replayed in my brain

Whenever I try to rest and sleep

Unwind, undo, rewind, replay

In my dreams

Thanks, no thanks

Nobody but me to blame

I've looked for an escape

Dead end in every lane

I'm no Superman, but she's my Lois Lane

Fond moments are gone

Cause I washed them down the drain!

There isn't any pain, just so much regret

Think about it every day, it's got me a little upset

I feel like an idiot, filled with detest

And an anger in my chest

No wisdom

I'm still a fuckin' little kid

18 years lived, and I still don't know shit

I don't know what love is

Not because I've never been loved

No, quite the opposite

I've just been too stupid

To cherish it

Least I acknowledge it

So I forgot

Now there's a fog

'causin' a mental block

Can't get over it

Weighed down by chains and locks

Holdin' me to the Earth

A lesson left to learn

Caused you so much hurt, I deserve to burn

It is what I have earned

The paycheck for which I worked

A pain-check

Something I accept

I'm the one who stacked the deck

I expect no less

Goddamnit, I make no sense

It's like a noose around my neck

Cuttin' off the blood to my head

I'd take my last breath

But I'm cursed with undeath...

[Bridge]

[Verse 2: The Act]

Yeah, I had it all with you

But I really dropped the ball

Kept movin' on without lookin in the rearview

What I'd do just to be near you

I wasn't seeing things clear, you

Gotta understand

My vision was foggy and faded

And our relationship degraded

Cause I was acting so jaded

I look back now, and I hate it!

I see a mirror and I break it

And it is not painless

The pain is, what I get for being brainless

I don't wanna make excuses

But my thoughts were fucked

And I was so clueless

As to

What was in front of me, now I'm just stuck

I wish I could go back and re-do this

Shake myself the fuck up, it's bullshit

I hurt you, and everything is ruined

But I really had no idea

If you think I knew it

That's not what the truth is

I can't believe how badly I blew it

But I deserve everything I get now

To suffer and struggle through it

Lie awake every night and review it

It taints my dreamscape

And it seems late

But I am so fuckin' sorry

I keep things as a keepsake

To remind me of my deep pain

So I don't forget, e-late

I know you can re-late

I don't want to teach hate

I'm an asshole, and I was angry

At every curve ball, twist and turn

That life served froze on home plate

Home is a battleground, no escape

I'll never know what it means to be home safe

I dove and all I got was road burn

What I really need is some closure

I can't ask for your forgiveness

Because everything we had is over