With a heavy heart

I had declared my defeat

Done pretending I was fine

Done with empty smiles

Toes hung at the edge

Toes hung at the edge

Devoid of functionality

Lost touch with reality

No connection to really speak of

Why couldn’t I let my face be shown

I could not let myself be known

From behind the curtain

I cast the very first stone

Dreadful being bring me home

I couldn’t make it on my own

Could never focus on my health

Breeding anger towards thine self

Let none dwell within

Silent ‘til these petty thoughts win

I now know better than to feed the beast

The beast within us all, the ultimate foe

Every day’s a battle, deafening and sick

I’m not afraid

To lose myself

Forever free

Remember me

With a fist deep in the dirt, and a middle finger raised

I reclaim purpose, and who I used to be

One step at a time

Treading carefully

Over the thin ice that is life

But with logic, reason and persistent strength

These feelings will die

Along with my hatred of human kind

This is a revelation in itself

No more denial

Exerting only truth

Self-revolution

In my shaky hands

The fall

So tempting

New Found Conviction, obtained

Old fears of change, now distant

Let none dwell within

Silent ‘til these petty thoughts win

I now know better than to feed the beast

The beast within us all, the ultimate foe

Every day’s a battle, deafening and sick