[Verse 1: J Three]
I shouldered the weight of all your trials
The trauma stains what should be triumph
I'm tryna be the success story
My purpose poised to silence doubters
I try to make you proud
I feel as if I must fulfill what's been lost
And make it found
Painting is the only place that I'm comfortable
I feel everything that troubles you
Lost myself, recovered you
Who I am perplexes me
Leaves less of me for loving you
Trees bear witness to my tormented specter
I just wanna be something spеcial
I need to be exceptional
Any lеss, I'm a death to you
Do you know what I carry?
I carry the keys to unlock a new earth
A version free from generational curse
By myself, I face it
I've learned it'll fuck you up
Good luck being first
Do you know what I carry?
Anything and everything
[Refrain: J Three]
Therapist broke me down
When the vocals sound it get hard to stay vocal now
Asking Where Are you Now?
Shit, Where Have you Been?
Damn, do you still exist?
Therapist broke me down
When the vocals sound it get hard to stay vocal now
Asking Where Are you Now?
Shit, Where Have you Been?
Damn, do you still exist?
[Pre-Chorus: Fry]
Activate
Bitches they hate when I activate
Bitches they hate when I activate
Bitches they hate when I activate, activate, activate
Bitches they hate when I activate
Bitches they hate when I activate
Bitches they hate when I activate, activate
[Chorus: Fry]
They dancin’ with the devil
Greatest power is to feel resentful
Use this pencil, jottin’ notes just to clear my mental
Used to settle
Filled with my grief so I can’t push the pedal
Strugglin’ to get on my feet so i’ve been skipping levels
[Verse 2: LQ]
What is my purpose?
Anxiety killing me quietly, makin’ me nervous
On the surface privately dying
My demon’s stay lurking
Lies on my name, spent late nights crying
Hiding from what I am
Runnin’ away silently from what my father said I have to do to be a man
Look what i’m learnin’
From birth a burden
Swallow my problems in a shot of bourbon
Still ain't change from a sinner with a lot of sermons
Critics try to verse me on my verses
Hoes say reimburse him
Reimburse him
Say LQ’s fine when I see in person (He’s so fine)
Read my mind when I speak these lines and see the life around us worsen
[Verse 3: Fry, LQ, and J Three]
Around us worsened the town is searching’
The clowns so loud but the sound is perfect
Can’t down our circus
My mind been turning
These rhymes in cursive
Deny the verdict
New man, not guilty
Fifty shots won’t kill me
50K don’t thrill me
Keep it real, you’ll feel me
I can't get a grasp of my old ways
Buried my mistakes, left without a trace
Embrace my past in the new age
I show progress with my strength
Trust the process, no blind faith
New project, same mind state
I object your hypocrisy
Vices destroy the monogamy
Bitches reaping what they benefit
Facing demons yet i’m heaven sent
Stay silent you might take offense
Facing trauma I can’t make amends
Make amends I don’t make amends
Bitch, look what I got
I can't take no L’s when im making M’s
Don’t think what I lost
I used to hop fences, now I hop in Benz’s
I’m dropping the top
All my bitches ten’s, go bring a friend
I’m shootin my shot
And I make it, I carry a lot
Be patient, they buried the plot
Don’t give a fuck if the critics gon’ spare me or not
Just spare me your thoughts
I’m scared of mines in my mind, you will find gold mines
Reaching out to myself on the other side
Hope you come and find me