Intro :

Don't want this

I hate this

Wish that you could know

That you are the reason for all of this shit

Verse :

I’m really nervous

Don’t understand that some stuff can change us

Feels like my chest is breakin’ in

And that my mind is stuck in a spin

One stare’s enough, to stop my lungs

Shit in my mind is weighting a ton

Not enough that I keep feeling left out

Can’t even do shit, I’m in constant self-doubt

Dream of perfection all day and all night

Can’t even see the ones close to me

The world I live in is fed of a frenzy

Don’t even see that that shit is deadly

Out of the house for the weekend I’m begging

Just kill it all, that would be a blessing

No wonders my mind is fucked, I’m guessing

Chorus :

Crack open some pills, pills, pills

No will to live, live, live

Shedding a tear, tear, tear

Just end my life with the slash of a blade

Crack open some pills, pills, pills

No will to live, live, live

Shedding a tear, tear, tear

Just end my life with the slash of a blade

Bridge :

Last time i had a moment of joy

Pff what am i thinking, can barely remember

Why did you feel like using me as a toy ?

My last name isn't worth shit, feels like i'm far from a member

Hope you like what you're doing, enjoy

Because in the future i won't even talk to you no more

Verse :

I swear i don't do this all for no reason

But believe me or not i've suffered from treason

Kept trusting people that took kindness for weakness

That's why i can write down these damn fucking lyrics

Red eyes too often It's killing my insides

But you of course can't see from the outside

Crushed my heart and turned it to stone

Stomped on it and now it's too cold

To turn it to how it was during the good days before

My tears are drying out real slow

Losing my voice with which i can speak

Losing my shit i think there's a leak

Too much bullshit i might be at my peak

Fell in a pit, don't feel like resist

As long as it keeps me from all of this piss

Don't really care if im all into bits

Chorus :

Crack open some pills, pills, pills

No will to live, live, live

Shedding a tear, tear, tear

Just end my life with the slash of a blade

Crack open some pills, pills, pills

No will to live, live, live

Shedding a tear, tear, tear

Just end my life with the slash of a blade