Spineless - Intellectual

[Verse 1]

I feel like I'm hanging by my throat

I wanna cut the rope but I just don't know how to cope

They say I got it all but in reality I'm broke

Try to cleanse my soul but I bought the wrong soap

How the hell did this happen? I used to think I was a captain

Now I'm all alone and my stories untold

I'm missin' the innocent citizen I coulda been

Listenin' to Eminem, just a kid with some headphones

Ashamed of my thoughts so I hide 'em all in jokes

I hate my fuckin' shows, I can’t do this anymore

So I just choke on these fucked up feelings that I wrote

Waiting for the day I wake up and feel like everybody else

I just want to be myself

I'm already in hell, can't you tell by the smell?

But I am who I am and it is what it is

Limited my abilities so I could live

[Hook 1]

I've lost my mind can't you help me find it?

The Devil gave me a contract and I signed it

All the bitches and money got me blinded

Can't even sit up anymore, bitch I'm spineless

And if you find this a little bit amusing

You and ya whole crew can bite on this uzi

You've unleashed the fuckin' Terror inside me

So when I'm gone move on and don't cry for me

[Verse 2]

I can't feel pain, I can't hide, I can't go outside

I can't look anybody in the eye

I couldn't even cry, back when Greenback died

I try to ease my pain but I always gotta fly

I see no reflection when I look into a mirror

I’m fading into nothing and that ain't even my biggest fear

I just don’t wanna be forgotten

I wanna be a prophet

I want my shit played out often

Don’t wanna be anotha body in the earth

And I want every mothafucka to have a Terror Reid shirt

And bump my shit til' they fucking ears hurt

Ain’t gonna be a starvin' artist, gone unheard

Want 'em to hear my words

To feel my hurt

To see my dirt

To go berserk

That’s why I always work

But that's why I always hurt man

Fuck it

I'm forever stoic

I guess all I’ll ever be is another dead poet

[Hook 2]