If it wasn't for my older brother i’d be dead

Ill trade my life and all my skills, power to let him live

He deserves a shot at life but that i didn’t

Put a bullet yo fitted, winnin

Actin like im perfect but the fact is i am broken

Kai the only life god shouldn’t have let make it

Fuck it

I wish my sisters wishes wouldve come true

“i wish you were never born” well sis i don’t either

But i haven't made it to the climax, not even half done yet

Gotta gun to my head, whats the point of living with it

I wish i never lived at all

I wish my daddy never hit, shit

Im a fuck-up, a grade-a douchebag

Im suicidal and i wouldn't be a good dad

Bag up my emotions im folding and floating

Could never ever be beaten from all this poison im eatin

Gun on my lap and some slits in my wrists

Pulled out the mag and i load up the bitch

BLOAW!

Dead

J-u-l-y, 23rd, lil bulb died

Hanging from a tree, his body still there? i dont know

Is he buried? is he happy? why the fuck did he go

Stay gold, bulb, never forget yo home bro

I will never leave i will stay put, and conquer

But i can't rule an army when theres holes in my armor

I am a legend, uh

Im short, skinny, paler than the snow

Look like slim shady if he knew his daddy—uh oh!

Fuck no, imma motherfuckin orphan

Drugs in my system to forget the whole bullshit

My “parents” made me go through, i told you

Im a psycho by nature, not from DNA

Thats how i feel today

Haven't slept in three days and i feel amazing

Why does life feel so hopeless, why does i wanna die?

Well why do you wanna live? i wanna be a monolith

A bricked stoned tower lacing bitches with a power

Making virgins make babies when verses are what made me

Fuck the church

Fuck you faggots im asking to snack on magic the gathering

With multiple counts of fraud and if im caught they hanging me

But i wouldn't be upset

Wait

This is not how i usually write verses im usually talkin bout

Rapin nurses and cursin but honestly im just tired

Of all the bullshit

Wanna put a smile on my face so i will cut my fucking lips

Open to my ears and then im smilin, for real, for real

I am a different build

Kai’s about to lose his mind ill slit your throat and try

To fucking take your head off like the cartel hittin femurs

Imma grab a heater, bust into arenas

And im shooting y’all down like the columbines teachers

Strangling a lemur, bitch i am the terror

Rape jenna ortega give lil shorty high ass fever

Treat her to a 5 star, let her met her master

Yung fidel castro, john wilkes son

Hanging fucking faggots, hate you all i am a dagger

Slicin at yall wrists, i hope you feel that shit go deep as shit

Wally-world has banned me from every fucking store

Because im in the aisles goin wild, but im just a child