[Intro: Tech N9ne]

I don't even wanna fucking do this song, for real

But I wouldn't be real if I didn't

[Verse 1: Tech N9ne]

I be sittin' by myself and I be thinkin', "Momma, what have I become?"

All I wanted was a family, but when I look up, you the only one

Losing everything but money, everybody left and I don't even get to see my young

Only happiness I get is in the studio or when I get to do another run

On the road, doin' shows, get the woes, when it slows

Gettin cold, getting old, but the flows, gettin' sold

I've been doin' this a minute but I think I wanna end it 'cause I'm on a higher level when I go

But the music I be doin', it be losin' 'em and make it really tough for me to grow

All I wanted was a family portrait, see my babies on a ranch with horses

But I was fucking devil bitches in corsets

I was livin' really good then I torched it

I'm sorry Ms. Jackson, I'm speakin' for real and I never meant to make your daughter cry

But I guess I'm a failure with women I'm lost and I feel like I ought to die

Feel like that I'm rotting away, my life is just off in the grey

How much does it cost? I will pay, to lay, and be off in a coffin today

I mean off in ashes, this life ain't after it clashes, If I get blasted

This is Suicide Letters all over again, I thought that I passed it

But I guess that I didn't, 'cause this one is written and there is no mending

When I'm broke I'm a joke, when I croak I just hope that I won't be descending

But this ain't a joke, I want you to know that Tech Ninna is never pretending

Alone in my bed, with a gun to my head, asking, "where is my happy ending?"

Yeah

[Pre-Chorus: Krizz Kaliko]

Tell me how it ends

[Chorus: Krizz Kaliko]

What about me? Where is my happy ending?

What about me? Is this a life worth living?

You know how it begins, but how does it end for me?

Will I ever win, or does he have it in for me?

Will this stop before I stop breathing?

Is there light in this dark I'm seein'?

[Verse 2: Tech N9ne]

I put my life in this music, Nina is inside out

I set my heart out for people, they know what the inside 'bout

Will they keep feelin' Nina forever? This I doubt

Can never cry for help, so if you listenin' this my (Shout!)

I'm searching for the passage way to happiness

But I'm worldly so I have to lay in nastiness

Yes, this is Strange year, worldwide fame's near, but the game's queer

Sometime I feel like I'm Rudolph the Reindeer

But instead of a red nose, I stay in my red clothes

And the music they said blows, is on top and the cred grows

Can you resurrect a motherfucker that feel like he posses a dead soul

Deteriorate to an inferior state almost equal to bread mold

Now as my head goes, wish I could shed those

Because all the times the Nina was shorted, what I bled froze

So now that I'm cold blooded, and hella sick is what the med shows

The tread slows, and don't even think you reviving a dead rose

Yeah

[Pre-Chorus: Krizz Kaliko]

Tell me how it ends

[Chorus: Krizz Kaliko]

What about me? Where is my happy ending?

What about me? Is this a life worth living?

You know how it begins, but how does it end for me?

Will I ever win, or does he have it in for me?

Will this stop before I stop breathing?

Is there light in this dark I'm seein'?

[Bridge: Tech N9ne]

Listen

I'm on the verge of insanity, but I'm competent

I'm breakin' so I pick this one to vent

The reason I look away when you talk to me my brain is producin' evilness

I'm drownin' in 151 and Rumple Minze

That's how I feel

[Verse 3: Tech N9ne]

I sit in the mirror with this gun and practice how to kill

But I know damn well that the people like me really wanna know how to chill

This life is about a check, about a number, about a bill

Think about all the love I lost because my quest is about a mill

I feel like you're stupid, don't talk to me I'm crackin' up

And I don't mean laughter, I'm full of bitterness and it's backing up

And I live with angels, but lately demons been shackin' up

Tug of war with my spirit, see the blood I'm hacking up?

I love my kids and my fans inside I sob harder

'Cause you pay the price for my life and it's right like Bob Barker

And I won't pretend that it's okay I'm no facade starter

So I guess my only happy ending's in a massage parlor

Yeah

[Pre-Chorus: Krizz Kaliko]

Tell me how it ends

[Chorus: Krizz Kaliko]

What about me? Where is my happy ending?

What about me? Is this a life worth living?

You know how it begins, but how does it end for me?

Will I ever win, or does he have it in for me?

Will this stop before I stop breathing?

Is there light in this dark I'm seein'?