[Intro]
I made it, I made this
But I don't know what to say here
I made this, I made it
But I don't know what to
I don't know what to
[Verse 1]
Start it up
My one friend asked me
He said
T. Sam, when you coming back to rapping? (yeah)
I don't wanna let what I put out be down and trashy (mmh)
I can't just do one genre cause that alone'll never gas me
Ain't got really much to say, cause nowadays I've felt so passive
Slow pace of education and this weight has been so massive
Much things burn up my change, and wages pay has been like ashes (yeah)
Emotions in my way, fill in the blank just like it's Mad Libs
See nothing to look forward to, or pour into my passions (whoo)
My thinking, I implore it to move forward through my actions (please)
But it don't move like I want it to, I've caught it really lacking
Like it don't see what's important, speaking mordant, speaking crassly
Don't nothing even make sense, for real (mm-mmh)
Vision look glassy
Can't really tell what matters still (what matters)
Cleaning my glasses
Been way low for the longest time (sad)
Couldn't be gladdened
Been waiting for the switch to flip, and change my life, no magic
I been taking Sabbaths
[Interlude]
I don't even wanna talk about it
Cause I don't wanna pull a card or be complaining
You know what I'm talking about?
But it's all on your shoulders, man
How much do you wanna press in?
[Chorus]
I'm good
Don't peek down under the hood
Forget it, I knew that you would
I really believed that I could
I wanted to love her forever
She gone, I'm afraid I'll forget her
I wonder if this what I get
For loving and being obsessed
[Verse 2]
Gotta be careful what I say (why?)
Cause anything could be watching
Ain't nowhere really safe (what?)
So my head is full of caution
My spirit full of pain (ooh)
Cause I've got regrets and losses
But I don't see mine as real big, cause I know more people got them (yeah)
Look around on the edge of the bed
(yeah)
Listen backwards on the clock and find the recompense for what you never said, yeah
Listen back like you can live it again
(yeah, like you can live it again)
Praying I can pay you back, really, so I'm scared to let my mind forget
But I know I'll forget it (dang)
One day I'll no longer regret it, that's why I'mma go off the rail and neglect it (oh nah)
I don't need to feel better, I meant it (oh nah)
I just need to do better repentance (oh nah)
What I need is to suffer a sentence
I know you forgive me, I haven't forgiven myself
I don't live with myself, I am distant
I'm afraid that I'll pick wrong and miss it
Feel like I'm trapped in a state
Don't mind me, I'm just tryna escape (lemme out)
Lost love so important to me
Man, what else is my mind gonna take?
And I'm looking and seeing the times
I need to read, and I need to pray (I need to pray)
But I'm trying to gather my reason
Cause I'm scared to be fake
[Chorus]
I'm good
Don't peek down under the hood (oh no)
Forget it, I knew that you would (I knew it)
I really believed that I could (I really believed that I could)
I wanted to love her forever (forever)
She gone, I'm afraid I'll forget her (dang it)
I wonder if this what I get (dang)
For loving and being obsessed (wow)
I'm trying to fix my head (I'm trying and trying)
But something in me's in the red
I haven't forgot what I read (nah)
But I can't seem to put out the steps (I can't)
Everything's going to heck (rragh)
I thought I could just take a breath
But nothing is bothered or pressed (no)
Cause I simply needed a rest (wow)
Shoot
Yeah
[Refrain]
Ooh
Needed a check (yeah)
Needed a rest
Needed a breath
Ooh
Needed a check (yeah)
Needed a rest (needed a rest and I needed to)
I need to think
I need a rest
I need a breath
I need a Sabbath, I need to manage
I need to press
I need to work better
I been too stressed
This is too much (I need to do right)
[Verse 3]
Can't do what I need to do cause I'm far too overwhelmed (dang)
Can't do what I wanna do, cause I need to do something else (dang)
Gotta do what I gotta do, cause I gotta do it for myself
And all that is closing in on me, so I don't know if you can help (don't know)
This world got nothing for me, and I knew that from the jump (jump)
But then I look at what I care about, and I can never really do enough (oh nah)
Can't even call it quits, cause I know there's no good in giving up (unh)
I just wanna run away, honestly, and I ain't even got the funds
[Outro]
I just wanna get out!
Lemme out, lemme out!
I just wanna get out!
Lemme out, lemme out!
I just wanna get out!
Lemme out, lemme out!
I just wanna get out!
Lemme out, lemme out!
I just wanna get out!
Lemme out, lemme out!
Lemme out, lemme out!
Lemme out, lemme out!
I just wanna get out!
Lemme out, lemme out!
Lemme out, lemme out!
Ouch