Deep End

By T. Sam

Released on July 3, 2020

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[Foushee: Sample]

Go off the deep end

I don't think you wanna give me a reason

I've been trying not to go off the deep end

I don't think you wanna give me beef...


[Verse 1]

Crazy with it

Youngest of the two, the baby did it

Tired of being basic with his living, so he made a list to get to chasing villains

Took his time so he could make a living

Making vacancies, some space to live in

180'd and seen his dream deceased, so he's been seeking beef with all the fiends who killed it

Having Anger seeing shadows moving, have Anxiety be shopping out for nooses

I got Insecurity locked in the cellar, and I chopped his fingers off and made us smoothies

I'm taking Lust out on a date tonight, put her in a rocket and she's taking flight

I press the button, launched the rocket into space and she ain't gonna get to say goodbye

Reach into the deepest recesses of the mental (the mental)

Doing things, people see it, say "boy you off the rocker, son you mental" (you crazy)

Did it cause I love myself, put you in a mood, nah I never meant to (nah I never meant to)

God made me for perfection, not for fear and stressing, that's just fundamental (that's just fundamental)

One reflection talking craziness, act extraneous and it's just horrible (horrible)

Fear of judgement in the other mirror, blah blah blah, just deplorable (yo)

I'mma just do what I gotta do, buddy, not sorry to inform you (not sorry, not sorry)

I gotta be the best that I can be, cause I can't never be normal

Never be...


[Foushee; Sample]

Go off the deep end

I don't think you wanna give me a reason

I've been trying not to go off the deep end

I don't think you wanna give me...

(that was pretty fun)

Go off the deep end

I don't think you wanna give me a reason

I've been trying not to go off the deep end

I don't think you wanna give me...


[Verse 2a]

Going at it like a madman or a masochist

Master this, semi-pacifist

Method of an analytic man, a king with a crown of amethyst

Look, "Semi-pacifist":

Every battle isn't one you have to win

Wisdom is a gifting from the Master, kid

Knowing when to pass the fist or pass on it

Getting back to business...

There is an enemy, a frenemy, and an energy, the inner me

It's an enemy that doesn't wanna sit down and give in to me

Loving living with the sin in me

My fears over the years, my tears causing distrust of me

Battling adamantly with all of the lust in me

Bought me a ring because I'm falling in love with me

If I ever fall, I'm looking into the mirror and begging "What have you done to me?!"


[Verse 2b]

I'm on the cold, hard floor with my side torn

Wet, red floor, this is my scorn

Look up and I see me staring back at me

Behind me, there's seven more freakish eyesores

Now my vision hazy

Now they talking way up out of pocket

One voice sounds like the chick I shot off in a rocket

She turn and calls me prideful and she tells me I should stop it

Insecurity, Fear, and Judgement start beating on my body

I'm out of it, darkness is clouding, I'm dying on the floor

Pouring out my life, my offering to the Lord

Praying for victory and new strength is filling my core

Death ain't my narrative, not anymore

And as I pick myself up all slow-like

I get a last good look at these low-lifes

They kept me from getting my soul right

So I tell'em real slow-like


[Bridge]

I been trying not to go off the deep end

I don't think you wanna go off the deep end

I don't think you wanna go off the deep end

I don't think you wanna give me a reason

I don't think you wanna go off the deep end

But I really wanna go off the deep end

So I'm daring you to give me a reason

Oh no, wait a minute

I don't need a reason...

HAARRRGGGGHHHH


[Vamp]

Blessed up, back with the strength from the Master

Round'em up, all opposition, hit'em with the blasters

Positivity stocked like ammo in my cache

All ghosts from the past get busted 'less they Casper

Focus on my present, getting better with my time

Focus on God, cause He gave me wings to fly

If you feeling lifted, just repeat the next line

Yeah this is the first day of the rest of my life

Yeah


[Outro]

Focus on my present, getting better with my time

Focus on God, cause He gave me wings to fly

If you feeling lifted, just repeat the next line

Yeah this is the first day of the rest of my life

Yeah