So special to me

In so many ways

Didn't think that I'd find you

Or care to for days

And she prays

So I stay here in solitude

Sick in myself again

Punching the air again

Burning your photograph

Wishing for us again

Knowing you feel again

Knowing I'm something

So much more than nothing

Just anything shy of a wink of your eye

For the joy that you've spilled

Or the boy that you've killed

Don't think I've forgotten how dirty and rotten

Your soul once could be

Not to me

Though that too

But to everyone else

Breaking a heart again

Taking apart again

All that you promised

That I'd never miss

In your kiss or your smile

It may take me awhile

Until I remember that ice cold December

When I lit a fire

And threw it to you

On you it just died

But in me caught the trees

And spread through the forest

It's been burning for years

And has quenched many tears

But don't fear what you've done

You gave me a gift

And to you I gave everything

Give it back

You don't deserve it

I see that now

You haven't earned it

And now I don't have anything

To offer as a gift

To bring a smile to a girl

Who I'd hold dear

If I could

Or if you'd ever let me go

Or let me know...

I'm not the one for you