[Intro]
Uh
[Verse 1]
Been livin' symptoms, I may 'plead victim
Don't bleed innocence, the 'guilt fulfills my sentence
Seen in 'dysmorphia, I thought it'd be obvious
But cover nausea' with 'such fabrics, playin' 'Aldious
Seekin' utopia, from an abyss of dystopia'
Though, such 'faults from the past stays reminiscent
It's a blast of 'toxication to my thoughts, decays and brittle
Feedin' ignorance to my heart, hope it'd be sufficient
But dyin' trees wit' the hammock, don't provide oxygen within
You cannot hate yourself in order to love yourself; essense
Doesn't help when humanity's split, no 'parole to unity
And the lack of 'interactions, the "busy" and the different, "mentality"
Or, the resentment I'd habour to my soul, so it's difficulty to speak
Just maybe: I'm better off 'alone, see if 'death's lurks in my sleep
See, it ain't suicidal 'tendencies, but 'seems destiny
Because I'm an enemy inside and outside, so, what is remedy?
[Verse 2]
When's saorise, the such serene?
The 'nirvana gets more conscious towards 'reality
Thoughts belief, the 'model that seems to bleed
No 'kumbayas, to obnoxious 'vulnerability (Mhm)
It's jus' been dissolative, but still so vivid
I'd remain lodged 'bottom of my emotions
The 'brim of the bottle, 'reflective and acquitted
How to respond to their needs & wants; their 'closure?
Mines' already began to 'fossil, there's no composure
Maybe, I'm sensitive 'from my narrative
Traumatic, I'd wish for sedatives, to be 'forgotten
I'd leave bad impressions, so I'd proceed caution (Mhm)
There's some hope, take that spliff and let my mind go
But doesn't 'paranoia' cost a fortune? I already know
Bein' judged in their 'scope, for how I'd 'convey knowledge
Makes me more 'isolated, more than you'd ever think
I haven't been lookin' after myself, to be honest ('Tsh)
'Times I'd stink, but 'fragrance has such 'compliments 'uplift
Why is it hard to be noticed? This is clearly 'my lowest, that I've been
And so-far, that I've seen-
[Verse 3]
I've been introspective, 'self-aware of my existence
Nobody's on the outside comin' in, ain't the nature's twisted?
So, I'd be 'in reminiscence for the times, I've been missin'
As I've lost confidence for 'closure, due to its' distance (Mhm)
Haven't I been introspective, regardin' to my surroundings?
Wouldn't know who to trust, 'experiences taught me lessons
With playin' avoidant than be effective, to my problems
I wasn't conveyed 'love, so I wouldn't know 'relationships
And rather, I'd blame myself to 'dust for it
Seems to be complicated in the head, I've been livin' in
As I'd think 'ahead, 'wasn't taught to be in the 'present
But the 'advices from 'El', 'ensures the negatives's 'quiescent
So, to be honest, I'm at the loss of myself
And I may not be 'fondest, but I think I need help
My thoughts formulated in 'beliefs, has me loss in 'religion
And in such meanings in, "friends", for what it's given
So, take the 'responsibility and believe that you can 'chieve
Make it through, you'll see in what you missed out on
As life's not longevity, because for 'gratitude is to breathe
And if you're in similarities, could you 'least please pray for me?