[Intro]
Mhm
[Chorus]
Fatigued but never tired, I've been rottin' in weight
For what I achieved, there's no validation within
So, I've concieved bein' inside, jottin' the emotions to 'grate
But the 'provolone of dopamine' only lastin' for minutes
Wonderin' in where I'd go, as the fog's vivid (Uh)
Been 'ignorance in my mind, for it be useless in the eyes
Considerin' that I'm a heavy soul, 'prolog beginnings
In hopin' to be vigorous, open my heart to where I'd reside
[Verse 1]
Livin' what I wrote, so it's the realest potent of dope
Get the backwoods 'roll, but it don't clear internal 'smoke
Missin' fragments of my soul, hard to unite within'
As 'parts of me separated from birth, can't lie in liftin' my chin
In hopin' of somebody to notice, behind 'such lyricism (Mhm)
That I've been fairly absent, wonderin' if I'm my, "beliefs"
Good grief, it's 'ferocious to be the body that I'm in-
As I'm only repeatin' such sentences, below 'walls that bleeds
Only myself can contribute to such 'change
Don't remain that shelved, it'd only uprise 'much pain
I've been tryna' embrace, hardships of shoes to lace-
But in the land of silence, 'yellin' seems to be only sound (Hey)
Am I paramount? I'd wonder within' all of my welfares
Who checks in and whose' usin' me for benefits?
It's hard to differentiate the two, so my personality's dull there
Ain't nobody seekin' just 'company, in what I've developed
But who could I be geniune to? It feels like I've secured, "doom"
Forlorn, 'chasin' dragons and it may not conclude, "passion"
Just trying to live through, so, the fuck do I do?
Loss of emotional regulation and socialization, seems overdue (Yeah)
[Chorus]
Fatigued but never tired, I've been rottin' in weight
For what I achieved, there's no validation within
So, I've concieved bein' inside, jottin' the emotions to 'grate
But the 'provolone of dopamine' only lastin' for minutes
Wonderin' in where I'd go, as the fog's vivid (Uh)
Been 'ignorance in my mind, for it be useless in the eyes
Considerin' that I'm a heavy soul, 'prolog beginnings
In hopin' to be vigorous, open my heart to where I'd reside
[Verse 2]
Deliver it 'steel, but doesn't change the 'kryptonite I've seen
Wonderin' in what's real, this is the lowest that I've been
And in what I'm experiencing, it's 'isolation, 'truly
Doin' particular tasks with no runneth of dopamine
As that wine's poisoned, the 'radiation from society
So, I'd seek serene, but where's the day I'll actually achieve?
Ran out of patience, and it's takin' a toll within me
Bein' honest, it ain't hatred but this how it'll be (Mhm)
My worst enemy, is my own mind
Is it me not resonatin' the energy within 'I?
Excessively-asked questions but wit' few answers
Runnin', spiral in objections, the 'justice has advanced
Self-guilt that the 'court in my thoughts, declared
Hopin' that it's direct, because keepin' a facade only 'bleds
I don't want life to end, I just want to be better
And hear some, "proud of yous" whenever I'd get through