father - Intellectual

[Intro]

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[Verse 1]

My origin of 'riots cursed the vessel, reflective in the environment

Tossin’ & fighting grins the Devil, it'd subject my 'judgements

See, my father piroritized his pride, bein’ the servant

For why there's distance in religion, wavin' against currents

The age of three, his duties falsified, 'equalled to be traumatic

Problematic, my ease's horrified, how do I process it?

I had to learn my own soul, it answers for why I'm, "outgrown"

The hobo bindle from homе; bein' no warmth for the cold

Friends had it diffеrent, so closure in itself's difficult

Father’s day translates witherin’ rose, for what it'd ’propose

The lack of parental love, it left me in 'detrimental dust

Seekin' validation externally only led to 'loss of identification

Internally, my ’imagination's in hinderance, it's sickenin'

Damagin' relationships, father never taught me that 'education

Famishin' social skills, but it'd 'roger to be fixing; listenin'

Even when I needed help, I was helpin' and it's fuckin' overwhelming

[Chorus]

Tied my shoes at sixteen, my 'pater looked than seen

Eyes wided, 'case there's emergency; needance for me

As he's never been, as he'd only 'bleed

Forsakenin' his duties, only 'relied on her 'dependency (Uh)

I was 'loose at thirteen, but lonely doesn't fix 'company

Find my identity, but smokes & mirrors always 'stony

Always for somebody, it's only time for, "we" (Mhm)

What am I supposed to be? The hive of mines, complexity

[Verse 2]

Conditioned to take 'responsibility, even if it ain't on me

Because he broke my humility, in abandonin' of vulnerability

It'd infatuated my pride, my competition's him and I'd compete

Best believe, my children isn't to be conquered, but nurtured (Uh)

Don't take substance, it'd 'deafen the 'rhythm of love language

For instance, 'pater had that 'lissom in bad influence

Viewpoint on medication? Don't you dare thread it wit' limerence

Dependence wouldn't be association, I've seen its 'rigorous

My father 'strained out, A-215 to 'rail the train down

His mind's lost the transport, flips the switch; that's double helix

My soul's chained down, how do I strive if it's hailed down?

When the 'shelter only supports toxic masculinity that'd trouble 'tectonics

Hence why, my 'ego's to do better, pride in launchin' the berettas'

But though, it'd be empty promises to get me together

Bein' confused in who I am, but it's 'boulders bein' man

That's proof without the 'gram, takes muscles to build the 'dam (Uh)

When Terry Crews beaten his father, he never got the satisfaction

Contraction that lands you farther of, "that" pride's redaction

You have to be smart than to 'punch hard (Yeah)

Life's about to achieve, and I have yet to even breathe

Only 'grew up 'revenge as I was the baby, bein' left on edge

My father's slowly 'transforming, I would be in 'acceptance

But if he'd ever be 'scorning against her, then I'll fuckin' murder him