[Verse 1]
I should've known better
But lust is a traitor
It was just a blur in the moment
I should've done better to hold it back
Like that, now
Who made me like this?
Who made me wish for a hole in my head?
And, no, I won't try this
But it's a feeling that I can't stand
I know they won't let me in the garden
This is Elysium and I know that I'm starving
The sword of Damocles and happily above it
Tied to a string that I want to break
[Verse 2]
I want to bask in the reverie
And no more tasks that are damaging
No matter how stimulating they might be
I want to clap to the orchestra
And break my back in a war of a, attrition
I hope for you to get fake
I'm sorry godmother for what you just might think
I wouldn't dream of anyone else to be like me
I'm not even implying that it could be likely
I just want all of my bones to break
I know you dream of a world where I am perfect
But I was born like this and I will never surface
I'm starting to wonder if you did this on purpose
But I don't care all I know is pain
[Bridge]
I want to clap to the orchestra
And break my back in a war of a, attrition
I hope for you
Are you in pain like I am?