Ey

Just like that, yeah, ey ey

"Give me your heart beat", she said

Too bad I never listen to what's in, my head

Been living with a hole where my core used to sit

Pumping, nothing

Trapped again inside my fuckin headspace

No no I can't fuck with that, call it dead weight

Purge my mental of that thought, now I'm okay

For a moment then it's gone slowly floating

Such a broken hearted, human

With time I can only hope that you, bloom in

From the shades of blue you keep on, reproducing

And see yourself as someone worth the, loose ends, steady choosing

Another way to keep your mind off it

Nah, that's

A part of you that's meant to stay, yeah

Believe me it's true, I've lived with it too

I felt a similar kind of way so I know what I'd do

From every high not talkin bout a direction or something we can repeat when we lie

I'm talkin something familiar that's been in both of our lives

Something that changed who we are

Something that gave us these scars

Something that makes us feel alone like there's no light in those stars, I'm reaching far

Just hope you listen before

You turn those head lights on

Curve the wipe then you're gone, Cuz I

Don't know, if I can stand here waiting (replaying the)

The memories left in the cold (Oh no)

If I, can go and rearrange it (Rearrange it now)

I wouldn't have to be alone (Alone, alone)

I, don't know, if I can stand here waiting (replaying the)

The memories left in the cold (Oh no)

If I, can go and rearrange it (Rearrange it now)

I wouldn't have to be alone (Alone, alone.)

I'm a go loose on this one

Yeah, but I can't, cuz I'm not, gonna change, what I got, who I am, who I thought, I would be

In the darkest year of my life In this world

And it's only getting harder I try to see that reflection in my eyes

On the mic, on the stage, in the bedroom, I've been locked, Hid away, lost the key, to my brain

Now I'm living in a state, where I can't get away

Or get out, of my body, I'm a slave, to my pain, I was born, around hate, so I'll take

My decisions to the grave, medication numb the way

I'm not tryna be a downer but I don't, wanna stay

It's a tough choice, a rough world

But this little voice, keeps on saying I must hoist, my anchor

Baby I'm with it but all I see is, anger

Depression has a funny way of, knocking backward

Just like your mother, Fuck it that's on another

Song I can't do it again, I wasted so much on her, I'm sayin

Help me out, Cuz I can't make it though

Another round, Repeating history like

This is all, I'll fuckin ever be

Ah, Ohhh

Hear me now, Don't wanna be someone who

Lives in doubt, I'm tryna get up but I

Fear, I'm not, so certain now, I, I

Don't know, if I can stand here waiting (replaying the)

The memories left in the cold (Oh no)

If I, can go and rearrange it (Rearrange it now)

I wouldn't have to be alone (Alone, alone)

I, don't know, if I can stand here waiting (replaying the)

The memories left in the cold (Oh no)

If I, can go and rearrange it (Rearrange it now)

I wouldn't have to be alone (Alone, alone.)