Breaking down as you're carried away

Long gone but your presence surrounds me

Reminded by your ghost

That I wasn't there for you when you needed me most

We shared a dream of reaching the stars

Now that you're gone I don't know where to start

That light was extinguished

Since I wasn't there for you when you were sickest

But I just kept lying to myself

I knew that time had come to an end

I couldn't continue to live in a fantasy

Wherе I ignore what's behind the bеnd

I'm tired of pretending everything is fine while I

Continue to lose the people I love

I can't fucking cope

Nothing is healing

I've lost a piece of me and can't shake the feeling that

There's a hole

In my chest

Where a heart used to reside

A soul

Broken

Into pieces that I don't recognize

As it tears against my skin

I refuse to let you in

And I tell you I'm fine

But really I'm dying

To say all these things

To push you away

It's been hard to leave

It's harder to stay

More I pretend

The faster I break

Struggling to heal

Since I'm saving face

Bleeding the lines

Between love and hate

Bend to the blade

That frees my mistakes

Hoping one day

This feeling will change

I tried to keep you in

But I can't do this again