[Intro]

You're not available, where are you?

Are you on the way?

[Verse 1]

I think I need some time to think

I think I need some time to drink

I think I need some time to eat some water and sleep

Wait

No

No, my mind's all of flutter

My mind's in the gutter

My apartment's all a clutter

I got scattered and battered inside that ten-by-ten-by-ten

I got lost inside my mind, echoing inside my head

Now I'm stuck here in the blue, and I don't know what to do

Cause I'll say pretty please to God but then I'll break all my new rules

I'm tryna make process, but quit on the process

I'm thinking I should write more and talk less

So let's write it all down, let's just lay it out

Let it go, let it flow, and just hope we don't drown

Yeah

[Verse 2]

It's hard to have community when you've been MIA

I got like ten friends, nine of them are out of state

We talk once a month, maybe twice if we're lucky

And I always find the beauty, but it's hard to call this lovely

Maybe I'm just broken, maybe I just need to sleep

Maybe in the morning I'll give up on all my dreams

It's hard to wanna hustle when like four of them believe

But it's really not their fault cause look at me, no look at me

I got all of my scars dropping boxes and the ball

Disregarding new mercies every summer, spring, and fall

And it's all out of order cause I don't protect my border

So now I'm terrified that she'll leave when I tell it all

[Verse 3]

Tryna break the fifth wall, drinking black tea on bones days

And you can stay the night, just lemme know the day

I made it to twenty-one, but not unscathed

Heroism is a full-time-job and it don't really pay

I know you don't believe half of what I've said

Cause I was lost and almost found seven times in my head

But now I'm not afraid to fall, cause even if it's gravity

If I get to be with you, there's no place that I'd rather be

Can't wait for the mentions, Lord, save me from your followers

Stay away from darling, don't you dare to request to follow her

"Let all your damage damage me", those the words I want to speak

After the after party

Yeah

[Verse 4]

Said I was on the way to wonderland, but immer immer wieder

Just gimme a minute to sit because my feet hurt

Feels like a few years ago, on those country roads

Makin' proud proclamations moments after I had seen her

But it wasn't really time, and it really isn't now

Still learning how to fly with me feet on the ground

Still learning how to kneel and take off my crown

Still learning how to breathe, still learning how to bow

Hard to start it over, take it from the top again

Had to work out of the blue before I could get out the red

No trust me when I tell you it'll make sense in the end

Just never lose your hope, and I'll see you tomorrow, friend

[Verse 5]

I wanna build some muscle, wanna stay out of trouble

Wanna build myself a throne and sit on top of all the rubble

Wanna cultivate a home that's God-fearing and blessed

Want to never lash out at the kids when I get stressed

I hope they're doing well, hope they call on me for help

Praying that they move toward heaven and move away from hell

No I don't know if I did well with my time there

But when I prosper, maybe I can let them know that I care

May God protect all of the people that I love

Man I hope that I make proud the saints watching from above

Nah I'm not sleeping anymore, no, I promise you that

Can't wait to talk about with you when it's all a wrap

Yeah