[Verse One]

Dear poppa I really hope you’re reading this

I never had a chance to sit and write bout all the things

I’ve been feelin since you came down

To raise the son you hadnt seen 11 years

I have some questions and confessions, maybe tears

Always wondered why a nigga livin lavish

Would drop everything he had to see a jit who wasn't havin it

Waking early on Saturdays just to make me a meal

When I would throw all the grits away how did that even feel? Prolly shitty

I know that I was awful, in hindsight I see you reached out to me When I couldn't be humbled

My hubris was overwhelming you showered me in your loaves

Myself I began to loathe

As we awkwardly hit the road of our relationship

We as stable as a pencil tip

My heart was callous from the streets I had been witnessin

My heart was callous from the streets...

Niggas had broken into the house and were you there?

My bike was stolen then busted to pieces and would you care?

Prolly. Scratch all the nonsense

You would have deaded the nigga and turned him into a coffin

And you know what?

I wish I would have known this in those first years

Known that everything you gave was love and saved a few tears

But now Im older and you’re still kickin it with momma

Never left us alone and now my struggle is Karma

I was ungrateful

So why would you buy me shit?

If it was out of guilt and I milked it I wanna die for it

Regret is overwhelming the air is a thinning black hole

Maybe if I held on a little tighter we'd be whole

[Bridge]

[Verse 2]

Everything is black my eyes are closed nothings intact

This pain is fact all is lost hope forlorn no turning back

Lets make a pact

For every want you have I’ll make you double back

In submission, lost transmission heartache burning out my vision

“Will you listen? You have fallen into this without remission

Can you really blame this solely on a hurt you keep forgetting?”

Last I checked nobody cared for the rat

Only the lion was loved

A little saved for the cat

This is where I make my stand because when I turned my back

I left behind all the baggage that you said you had taken back

The love I should have felt walking tall in your false light

I feel within the world without it costing a brothers life

I bet you’re at a total lost for solemn words

They claim my soul is gone and dying with the world

And with that I feel an absolute peace

Because I’d rather burn in hell than say I gave up as fleece

[Outro]