Lost Cause - Intellectual

[Intro]

[Verse 1]

Life really is a rollercoaster ain't it

A full picture but only a soul or ghost can paint it

'Cause while we’re alive we bury lies and whirl our horizon

But really every gem is just a pearl to a diamond

I am always turning a blind eye to life at large

Like maybe it won’t so bad later when I’m in charge

But my discouragement gets in the way of flourishing

Every creative aspect has kept me malnourishing

Need me a reality check, I say I’m chasing my dreams

But in reality checks, how can I casually flеx

And let all these casualtiеs rest, like when I get a bag

I’ll be blessed so I have to be next, tell me master the

Art, when I should master the stress, and get a masters

Maybe it’s blessing in disguise when the ink splatters

Lately what I’m holding’s not the only glass that I hope shatters

'Cause the window’s looking like the better option of the matter

My phone screen’s glass is empty as it’s always been

These comments don’t mean anything 'cause unless I always win

They’re gonna be there for me, to bring me back down to the planet

And then I begin to notice how badly everything’s damaged

How badly I can’t replenish, how badly I can’t recall

The fundamentals of childhood, problems I can’t resolve

No, at the end of the day I am a failure

Life’s full of waves and I’m the furthest thing from a sailor

[Chorus]

Like everyday I pray that no one knows the real me

'Cause he just can’t figure out

How to get past his own doubts

In every way I’ll say that no one goes against me

But I just might be that one

I wanna fall apart, no

[Verse 2]

Doing me favors by disservices

Lack of more excuse is what the reason I’m so nervous is

For lack of better words it is the future cause of my death

I used to call them sidesteps, now thoughts of mine bisect, my narrative

Caring did, nothing to raise my trajectory

Been a while since I measured days by serenity

Only 15 and it sure seems